Posted at 10:4610:46
I only wanted to help and to care for babies - Letby
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
When asked how many babies she had cared for during the period in question, she says: "Probably hundreds."
Myers, Letby's defence barrister, goes on to ask her: "And did you care for them?", to which she replies "yes".
She is then asked if she ever wanted to hurt any baby.
"No that’s completely against what being a nurse is, I only wanted to help and to care for them," she says.
She is then asked how she felt when she was taken off duty.
"I was distraught... It was life changing. I was put into a non-clinical role which I didn't enjoy... from a self confidence point of view it made me question everything about myself."
Posted at 10:4810:48
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Myers is asking Letby how she felt when she learnt what she was being accused of.
"It was sickening, I just couldn't believe it. It was devastating," she says, adding: "I don't think you can be accused of anything worse than that. I just changed as a person. My mental health deteriorated. I felt very isolated."
Posted at 10:4910:49
Letby's parents sitting behind her in court
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Lucy Letby is speaking calmly and clearly.
Her parents are sitting just behind her in the public gallery, along with two friends.
Some of the parents of the babies who died or were harmed at the Countess of Chester neonatal unit are also in court.
Posted at 10:5010:50
Letby says 'my job was my life'
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Lucy Letby is crying in the witness box.
She says "my job was my life" and "my whole world was stopped".
She is still crying.
Posted at 10:5210:52
'Everything has changed'
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Asked how hard it is to cope "with what you're being accused of", Letby says "everything has changed".
"Everything about me, my hopes for the future, has changed... I've been remanded in prison since November 2020. I've been in four different prisons."
Posted at 10:5310:53
Letby describes moment of arrest
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Myers asks Lucy Letby about the first time she was arrested.
She says: "There was a loud knocking at the door at six o'clock in the morning. My father was staying with me at that point. He was staying there too."
She is crying and wiping her eyes with tissues.
Letby says she was told she was being arrested on suspicion of the murder and attempted murder of multiple babies, and was taken to the police station in her pyjamas.
When she was released she wasn't allowed to return to Chester. She went to live with her parents in Hereford.
Posted at 10:5610:56
Letby says arrests left her with PTSD
Judith Moritz
Inside the courtroom
Letby says that at her parents home there was loud banging on the door again, and it was the police for a second time.
She says "it was the scariest thing I've ever been through, and it's traumatised me".
She says she is now very sensitive to any noise, any unexpected change. She gets startled. She says she has been diagnosed with PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) in direct relation to the arrests.
When Letby was arrested for the third time she was taken into custody.
She says she makes a three hour round trip to court each day.