I feel their pain and I understand the emotions and complexity of those emotions. They are much better people than I because I'm not entirely sure where I would end up in all of this.
If I'm AG I am horrified that my child is capable of doing what was done to Becky. I would be filled with guilt, feel responsible, and be in great need of counselling and care. There is no way around it. I would have a very time looking my husband in the eye for my guilt at producing such a monster would be overwhelming to me. As misplaced as these feelings may be, it would be how I felt. I have to say in all honesty that I'm not sure that I could stay in the relationship because I would feel my presence would be an never ending reminder of the horror of what happened and I would feel a sense of shame and responsibility. It's just how I am. I might visit Nathan in prison once. That visit would be for me - not him. I want to really know why. I would want the truth. The reality is I probably wouldn't get the truth so that would be that. I would walk away and never see or speak to him again. But that's me.
For DG, I understand everything he has said and feel empathy and sadness for the life he has had to lead for the past many months. I find it remarkable that he has been so honest in relaying his feelings. I am incredibly impressed by his ability to spill his guts and then put it all in perspective.
They have a long road to walk. I hope they can manage to find a middle path and go on caring for each other as best they can. They have so much "stuff" that needs to be tackled. Sometimes strength comes from adversity. Horrible events can drive people apart and in others a new reality is born and couples become closer.
Unless I walk in their shoes I can't even begin to imagine how they move forward.
I wish them well. I hope they can find some peace in their lives and carry on.
I'm not sure I would ever get over it.
Totally agree with you there. What a truly horrendous situation tho to find yourself in. I do hope the FLO has been able to put them in touch with services that can help them go forward. I know they are a large extended family. With plenty of support within that family unit. That's a blessing in itself.
And also yes. The visit to Prison would be on my terms. But I'd want to do it also with acceptance from the O H. As it would ultimately benefiting the immediate family.
I'd want to ask NM why he felt the need to take things as far as he did. Everyone left things lying around you'd only have to look to see that for yourself. (Re photos from C H)
And that his house was alot worse. (Re photos CML)
So the 'untidiness. Items left lying on floor' . Was just an 'excuse' to get at BW.
A reason to Justify NM'S temper and rage. Which becuz BW didn't submit n come quietly with NM. And the accidental removing of the mask threw NM into a blinding bloody rage. That ended so tragically to BW?
I'd have to ask why... will he spill?
His petty row out with BW. was it meant to end so tragically?
Why not call 999.
Make an excuse you were 'play fighting' and she fell unconscious.
Why?
Why did it happen?
WHY WHY WHY?
I don't think he'd give a direct answer. He'd be in his Cave man mentality. Head down. No eye contact. Wanting his mom to say there there its okay. It's all okay.
Well sorry. It's NOT okay. YOU made it NOT OKAY.
Never once saying sorry. Never once showing remorse.
With that I would silently leave. Into the arms of MY family. My O H. And concentrate on my family coming to terms with life without #beckywatts ♡
All moo ☆