Zach, as another father, you are experiencing my worst fear. Despite anything you did or didn't do, or wished you did or didn't do in the past, what's important is how you handle what's going on right now. Your strength and consistency are inspirational to me, and I can only hope that when faced with a dire situation such as this that I can find the courage to face it like you are. Head up, keep pushing through. You are the role model in this situation. Thank you!
please forgive me if I fail as a role model. I am trying - for my daughters, because I desperately don't want the devil to win this and destroy my family, but there is a good chance i don't stay above water here. This is the most foul mess I could imagine. I am gonna keep trying.