I am happy to see you added this about your faith in God because I did not buy into "nothing too intimate". You may not trust people yet, but you do know God. You know you can trust Him and that is pretty darn intimate, if you ask me. My prayer for you is one day you heal and trust not only others but yourself. I understand wholeheartedly why you doubt, but I pray one day you can and I do believe you will, find faith in yourself and those God puts in your life. Fear in any shape does not come from God. YOU have the knowledge and capacity to do what is right in your life and your girls' and you will do it. 2 Timothy 1:7 You have absolutely got this, Zach!
Youre right. Thank you VERY much for prayers. And I read that scripture and hear what you say. I know that I am weak when I lean on Him, but He becomes my strength. If I try to be strong and handle things with my own pride then I am not as strong as I think or portray. I need God.