Please don't throw rotten veggies at me for this, but I want to speak a bit about adoption.
I am adopted. My brother is also adopted. We have loving, giving parents, who treated us as well as could be expected. Mom was/is a tad odd, Dad was/is a tad controlling, but whatever. No parent is ever perfect. Nor is any child, adopted or bio.
I was born in early May, and was not adopted until the beginning of September. There were some health issues that had to be addressed before I could be placed. I am about the same age as TH, so I imagine the same sort of thing may have happened to her, which would account for the time delay in her placement. Maybe not, but since it happened to me, it's fairly easy to think it could've also happened to her.
A note on "wealthy" families: a lot of adopted people had, at one time, imagined that their "real" family was wealthy, that they were a princess, that the bio family was 'perfect.' I blame it on Disney, LOL. But it does happen. We, as children, are confronted with a different reality than bio children, and sometimes, when it's hard going in our world, we make up a comforting thing (like a life of luxury), and can actually imagine that our 'real' family will show up and take us to live in a castle. At that age, we don't always understand the reality of late 1960's social structure, and that a lot of unwed mothers relinquished their babies for adoption.
And so because we are children, prone to wild attacks of fantasy, this is a common 'story' we create. After all, whose to say we're not right? Eventually, we give it up...but at the time, the fantasy/magical thinking serves a purpose.
Throughout my life, I've always felt that I was "less than", "unloved", and "unwanted." While my logical, mature mind says "pshaw, not true", it took me until well into my late 20s and even into my 30s to come to terms with the truth...until I did, however, there was an awful lot of confabulation and some frankly made-up stuff. I wanted to be "good enough", "smart enough" and "wanted" enough to fit in, and so I created an interesting, adventuresome life which was not real.
Until I understood my needs and motivations, I was a mess. I had several affairs with married men, one of who's wife was also quite pregnant. That turned into a serious mess, and it caused me to really start examining my life. My motivation for it was pretty simple: if I could lure a man already committed, then surely I must be special and 'worthy'.
Of course, this was not true, and I left a lot of hurt and heartbreak in my wake. I cannot describe the duality of self-loathing and pride, but I can say it was not because I loved myself. Rather, it was because I didn't love myself, and needed someone else to love me, that I did some pretty outlandish and outrageous things.
Perfectionism also was a key, although for me it was more of a if I can't be perfect, I'll just be rotten sort of thing. I understand TH's addictions - she's looking outside herself to find herself, and never has she been able to have the courage to look inside herself, and find herself there. I see TH's body building as "if I can win, someone will love me." I see her drinking as a way to stop the feelings of "I was rejected by my mother, and no one else will ever love me." I see the sexual things as acting out, a way to say "I have value, I have worth. Please someone love me."
A lot of adopted folks wrestle with the demon of rejection every single day of our lives. If our own mother didn't love us, then who else will? My brother has not really come to terms with his adoption yet, and while I have, I still find old patterns of coping rising up during times of significant stress...but am far more able to deal with them appropriately than I was before.
Does this in any way absolve TH? No, of course not. But I keep seeing stuff about adoption and wanted to share my opinions and thoughts about why she may do things she does.
Like I said, please don't throw stones at me...or rotten tomatos. I just wanted to shine a bit of a light on some of the issues that she may have faced, like I have...and maybe explain some of her behavior.
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