Was just going back through the tweets from during the 911 calls and Amanda from WESH said that CA was in the bathroom during the recess and everyone in the hallway could hear her sobbing.
Pray they have some very strong meds for her to take when she gets home today. That woman desperately needs and deserves a long peaceful nap and she'll never get to it on her own.
I have always said CAs denial was what was driving the abhorrent behavior we've been seeing these past 3 years - now the last facade of it is crumbling in public. She now knows that everything she believed really was a lie and has had to actively admit it to herself and the world - and bearing witness to this is somehow very humbling.
May He forgive me for being human and heaping judgement on this woman.
I have been speechless this entire morning. I sobbed uncontrollably right along with Cindy when she had to endure listening to those tapes. I envisioned my own mother's reactions to my sister's behavior and it hit me in a place in my gut that took my breath away.
I have never been a fan or supporter of Cindy's, and I won't make claims otherwise. But this morning I saw a woman whose entire sense of reality has come crashing down hard around her--the daughter she raised is a monster and that is now becoming a truth in Cindy's heart. There is no escaping it now. She has been in denial for the past 3 years, wanting--needing--desperately to believe in her little girl. But the truth has hit her like a sledgehammer and it must be such unbearable pain for her.
I still have tears rolling down my face, recalling Cindy literally curled into a fetal position up there on that witness stand. She was trying to crawl into herself, but she had no place to go. There is no doubt that this woman is in deep, deep pain.
She knows the truth now--and now is the only thing that matters. Whatever words or actions she put out to the public previously, at least for me, is forgotten and forgiven. She had to behave that way for her own sanity and self-preservation. Someone turned the light on for her to help her see the truth--I only pray that whomever that is stays with her to support her during the days, weeks, and months ahead. She is going to need it.
Those words that ICA uttered on those tapes sounded just like my sister--even when my mother or I would be as upset about something as Cindy and Kristine were, my sister's tone and words were identical. It is very frightening, in retrospect, to hear the cold, detached, insensitivity of her words.
I hope that ICA sits for 15 or 20 years on death row, contemplating the actions that put her there, and then I hope that needle hurts when it slides into her arm and ends her life once and for all.
She will never comprehend the hurt that she has caused to those around her--because the only thing that matters to Casey is Casey.
