During the first several days, I found dad's public silence bothersome. As well as the vague timeline of events we were learning about, the "hinky meter" started to go off but the blinders weren't appropriate. Now that he's been talking, I think I'd prefer the silence.
Then we started to hear a comment here and there. I've continued trying to talk myself down. I try not to place too much in the varying use of past and current tense... all family members are doing this and on its own, I understand this. I can almost appreciate dad's refusal to engage in public banter w/mom. If dad is being completely cooperative w/LE, and has nothing to hide, I can accept him not being out in the media and public. I can explain a lot away by an individual's personality and the way someone copes with grief and an extreme situation like this.... truly, nobody can really say what we would do if we were in this position... even if we are convinced we know what we would be doing.
Unfortunately I'm finding it impossible to buy dad's whole story right now, based on what I've seen and heard from him (and what I haven't seen and heard from him). He's blamed LE on numerous occasions, he doesn't seem to understand that mom's "lashing out" could possibly come from the fact that her son "disappeared" on HIS watch, he really hasn't said one thing showing concern or guilt (not guilt of a crime but what I think would be a natural guilt that one's child went missing in the 4 hours you as a parent were away), and he is completely void of all emotions, imo. EVEN anger when talking about LE's "shortcomings" or his ex wife's blaming him. He seems detached, which I've tried to attribute to the extreme situation he's in, but I don't see that.
I really can't think of one thing he's said or one instance where I heard in his voice anything that strikes me as a grieving parent. But, of course, this doesn't indicate guilt of any sort and could simply be a reflection of his personality. Not everyone is as emotional and obvious as I am, so perhaps he's just reserved and that could be what I'm observing.
All jmo.