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2139 hours: Shanann told Watts, "l was trying to get you to







hug me. Make me feel safe. This is much deeper than 'lack of conversation !' Make me feel like everything is going to be ok."
Watts replied, "It will be ok.
This will all get fixed."
Shanann responded, "No I don't need words damnit. You just told me you don't want this baby.
2145 hours: Watts replied to this, "I am scared ok. You wanted the truth and I told you how l felt."
Shanann replied, "You hold me after that conversation, you hold me. If you want this to







last you make me feel safe after that bomb... Don't you get it?" Shanann added, "How many times do I have to ask you to hold me? You hate me that much?"
Watts eventually replied, "I don't hate you.
I will fix this. It will be better."
Shanann noted, "You didn't answer me" and added, "I'm begging you to hold me and you still can't."
Watts replied, "I don't know where my head is at.
I will fix it though."
2216 hours: Shanann wrote, "This isn't the only thing. This doesn't get your head all screwed up.
Something changed in the last 5 weeks... Something you won't say."
Poor, poor Shan’ann. She knows something is terribly wrong, she’s begging him for affection and to tell her what’s wrong, desperately trying to save the marriage and his answer over and over again is … “I’ll fix it”. And he did, permanently.