I just read. I don't have time to listen. But I think most is pretty much true as
@MassGuy thought.
Except it was planned and he can't admit that. I don't think he felt blind rage. I think he felt desperation and determination.
He totally had her pinned because he intended to kill her. I think she was afraid and sensed danger but didn't totally believe he could harm her. But it does seem like he was trying to work up the courage and make her give him a definitive "trigger".
The Aspen trip was as important as I thought. He asked her not to go and she didn't give the answer he wanted. He was desperate. So at that moment he got the trigger he wanted and killed her.
NK is just as I suspected as well. She totally knew about the relationship and pursued him! The pursued him while already knowing he was married with kids part was unexpected. But the pouting and manipulating in order to get him to declare she was most important? Right on the mark.
In fact, she's more diabolical than I thought. Something is wrong with that chick.
It is pretty definitive for me after reading that, that he took his poor babies to the site to murder them. I believe all of that.
The only things that seemed questionable to me is his pretense about rage and not planning this out. It just wasn't well planned out. Also, he fully knows why Shanann didn't fight back. He had her pinned under the covers. Horrific.
So many people were right about his relationship dynamics and how he picked dominant people. I was surprised he moved out of his house and never went back. Also interesting that he seemed to dump them once he got with Shanann. Echoes of things to come maybe. His ability to disconnect. It was odd though that he was able to describe his parents so positively yet disconnect so quickly.
He is truly bizarre. After only couple months he was willing to decimate his entire family for a monstrous siren. Incredible. It supports my suspicion that he really didn't feel much actual feeling in life and the excitement of being pursued by a sexy woman became dangerously obsessing. But it's so hard to understand.
The investigator questions about what they could've done differently were pretty interesting and show LE's motivation. I hope those questioning their reasons for going down there can listen to this. It had nothing to do with investigating anyone else. Just trying to understand and profile and learn for the next time.
CW's family is even more vile than I thought, IMO. The things they've said to him about Shanann and trying to convince him that he's a battered husband and suffered from some complex PTSD? After saying what they said at his sentencing? Just evil. They're still trying to bash that poor woman. Yes, CW described an imperfect woman but also someone who was loving and a great mother. She didn't deserve to be choked until she defecated and then died and she doesn't deserve the continued attempts to deflect blame onto her by his terrible family.
CW is incredibly bizarre. How he describes his mindset. The things he cares about (how people perceive him), his candor about his thoughts and feelings. His regrets. How he reads to his kids every night. And has his family's photo on his wall (much like Christian Longo). His total lack of insight about normal human emotion. I mean he candidly discusses the suffering and fear he put his family through and sort of is able to coldly discuss Bella's terror and understanding about what he had done and was going to do to her, but he just seems sort of detached by that. Not realizing or only vaguely realizing how horrific that was and how his words will affect people and make them feel.
Yet he is haunted by Bella's last words. "No daddy!" But he is surprised that people would judge him based on only one thing he did in his life? Are you kidding, chief? That one thing cancels out EVERYTHING you've done in life that might have been good. You dumped all that in the toilet by your morning of murder.
My gosh. He has something very wrong with him that I don't think can be explained by any diagnosis. Not really.
I can't wait to hear what everyone thinks and to get more blanks filled in by people who heard the audio.