sorry I forgot to put the link
He wrote: “When she came to the car with her little daughter in her hand and opened the back door, I was already standing behind the two of them, holding a rag soaked in (chemical) ether.
“I forcefully pushed it into the woman’s face. At first she fought hard, but I held her tight. The girl sat in the car and watched me with wide, horrified eyes.
MADELEINE McCann prime suspect Christian Brueckner wrote horrifying fantasies about abducting and abusing a blonde toddler — and how this would leave him “in paradise”. He also boasted in online fo…
www.thesun.co.uk
Personally I haven't read any of his journals in person, I suppose they could make all this up but I very much doubt it.... it was also mentioned in the unseen evidence documentary