In hole "mole traps" or gopher bombs. Personally, I like the bombs, well it's more of a gas, but it kills them underground and no bodies to dispose of.
Dmacky,......what can I say? Are you going through this under a Dr.'s care or on your own? Sometimes even the strong need a bit of help.
You're hitting that anniversary date, so don't despair, it's normal. It also gives you an opportunity to let out some more grief, which we tend to stuff over the year when we get hit with a sudden but fleeting sadness. Take it as an opportunity. Look at it as an opportunity. Use it as a day to embrace all the wonderful things you and your husband shared. Talk to him, heck, get mad at him if you feel like it! Just don't stuff your feelings.
When my dad passed this passed year, I spent time talking to him while I worked out........and we had "issues"! My BF would say "Hey, Bernina, are you swearing at me?!?!?!" "Nope, Don, just working out some stuff with my dad!" Saying things out loud seem to be the ticket for me, instead of repeatedly internalizing, It becomes a crazy vortex I get sucked into.
Hang in there, Kiddo! Take it slow and be GOOD to yourself. You're among friends!
