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Dreams are wonderful and as I have said before, some must be given up for whatever reason, but there are new dreams that will come for you, I'm sure of it. You have had your dream of your horses for a while and that was good for however long you had it, but I do understand being sad and mourning for what was.
Things are always changing in anyone's life- some good and some , unfortunately, bad. It's just part of life, IMO, and these changes must be endured or you will "break" ("Bend as the trees in the wind or you will break" ~ Y/N). For myself, I now take my life only as "this day" now that I have gotten older- there is no "10 years" from now in my thoughts- no long time planning of my dreams anymore. This doesn't make me sad tho' as I'm happier and grateful with just "this day" and waking up to another day. To me, there is less stress that way.
I do have one dream and that is for my younger son to finish grad school next year so he is ready to battle the world with a masters degree under his belt. I have tried to help him in anyway possible to attain his dream of being a Hospice Social Worker, but that is his dream, and the young should dream big, IMO, because they are young and with God's help/will, the young will have plenty of time to follow their dreams. I feel that after he graduates, I have done my job and can just relax to enjoy what my life has become and is. I am happy and you will be too after a while.
My poor Zuri, my friend. :therethere: Take heart. I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby horse (again). :sigh: