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You kids are aunties again!!!!!
Little girl born around 9:30 pm.....in the dirt per usual Kissy style, lol, which turned to mud with all the amniotic fluid.
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Still trying to figure out how to get pics off this cell phone, will figure it out when Marc comes later on this morning.
No name yet, but Zubaz was there as usual, and Kissy just had to wait til I got outside, and then she was down, out popped the little one, Kissy passed the after birth, and so far so good! Got her dried off and into the turn out with a bunch of straw in it.

And it's going to be a long night!!! Not too bad for just me and the kids.:happydance:
 

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.........and I'm drinking coco, out of my wet clothes, warming up, and getting ready to go out again to see if the baby needs a blanket on her...36 degrees outside!!!! I *think * she has 3 socks, and that white spot on her head like Zuri, won't really know til the morning.

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Kind of figured this would happen, Marc had the next 3 days to help me lay conduit out to the stalls and put up new sides....well, sometimes things have a way of happening! Better pics tomorrow......
 

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Up here and haven't been to bed and 4:19 am :gaah:

Perhaps stalls filled with names of :websleuther:s from sidebar ?

:floorlaugh:

:party: :congratulations: :birthday:
 
Couldn't help myself. I commented on the feminine collective.com story. I don't know what the payoff is for the writer, but just think of all the good she could be doing with her time.

Good Lord!! I just took a gander at it and I'm afraid the saccharine oozing from the comments are way too much for me.:sick:
 
.........and I'm drinking coco, out of my wet clothes, warming up, and getting ready to go out again to see if the baby needs a blanket on her...36 degrees outside!!!! I *think * she has 3 socks, and that white spot on her head like Zuri, won't really know til the morning.

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Kind of figured this would happen, Marc had the next 3 days to help me lay conduit out to the stalls and put up new sides....well, sometimes things have a way of happening! Better pics tomorrow......


Woohoooo!!! Nice work Kissie and Bernina. Kissiebaby looks beautiful! Hope you have had enough rest. Auntie Spellz sends love and good health in abundance.
 
Congratulations Bernina on your new baby and a warm :welcome: to her. She has that "star" on her forhead- such a beauty.

:party:

:confetti:
 
Couldn't help myself. I commented on the feminine collective.com story. I don't know what the payoff is for the writer, but just think of all the good she could be doing with her time.

BBM But the author thinks she is doing a good deed by visiting/writing the murderer- time well spent in her eyes, IMO.

I don't see your comment on the website???? Did she delete it?

I don't like what this woman had to say in her article. In my eyes she makes anyone who doesn't have some compassion for the murderer sound ...bad...not loving- with her "small love and small kindness" statement. I'm offended by her as I get the impression,in a way, that she is judging the people who don't feel/do the same. What does she see that many people don't see in the murderer-there for the grace of God go I? I would not murder anyone and most of us would not/could not murder. To what end does she visit "the only Jodi I know"? (this fake person, this liar- that's the reality for me, and she does not deserve "respite" , IMO). She needs to ask forgiveness, not only fromTravis and his loved ones, but to the whole world for what she has done to another- murdering someone who was very loved by others and had the capacity to do so much good for others in his life. The hurt there that she has wraught is so great, IMO.

This "extremist" woman who visits the murderer said:

"We have never discussed her trial, the past, or the future. It’s just a brief respite from reality. Even for me. Because I’ve made the decision to visit her, I separate her from her crime. The only Jodi I know is the one I see for 30 minutes every few weeks. I still hold on to my belief that it is not my role to judge, but rather to be an extremist offering love and small kindnesses."

I wish I knew how to " separate her from her crime". I guess I don't have as much compassion for the murderer as this woman does. I do judge her and I don't know how to stop judging her for murdering an innocent man that she claimed to love. I have always believed that it is not my place to judge also, but.... I do judge her and that's a sad fact for me. I judge her in the eyes of all good people who think life is precious and not something to slaughter as she has.

I know that having compassion for someone does not cancel out the consequences of their actions. I do not lack empathy for people, so why is it so hard to have it for her? I truly tried to have compassion for her- many times, but I failed.

Genuine compassion is impossible for me in this case because, again,I feel the injury is too great- murder is the greatest injury, to take that something from another, their life (the most precious thing anyone has.) If she will not take responsibility for the death of Travis as her own, is un-remorseful (and I don't believe she has any real remorse here), why must I "forgive her her trespasses" and have compassion for her? I cannot give her "cheap" compassion/forgiveness- just words from me to show the world what a wonderful person I am. And what is wrong with refusing to have compassion for this person- this murderer- in this anyway? Someone please answer me that. Bah! :(

All thru the murderer's trial, I struggled with my faith and kept questioning myself about how I felt about the DP. I have, I thought, a steadfast stance against the DP, but I struggled with the thought of wanting her to get the DP and my desire for her to get it. And then, on the other hand, that she is a person too and shouldn't be killed. There was/is now a turmoil that is going on in my, what I call, my "inner light"- the light that is attached to goodness, kindness, and compassion for others. It's a struggle, in any event, now ( and I don't want to lose that light) and that's why I needed a breakthis past summer from WS and murder to pray for more guidense in what , I think, I stand for.

And what about the author's comments?- telling the world what a wonderful person she is by doing so many other things besides write to the murderer once a week or visit her.

and this little ditty she wrote:

"...this is who I am and what I do. I sincerely hope that how I spend my time meets your expectations of a life well spent."

Talk about passive-aggressive.

Well- enough of my rant- my thoughts today are all me "just saying" - talking from my inner mind -that I'm making y'all endure (because maybe my thoughts don't make any sense). I need help to find more humility because my inner light is dim in the murderer's case.

One more thing: If you compare this author with Sister Prejean and Robert Lee Willie, (you know Dead Man Walking) at least the Sister tried to get him to take responsibility for what he had done and just didn't visit him to give him some "respite" (as if he deserved some respite) and a nice little conversation- all laughing and ha-ha. So what is this author's agenda- a book? (even Sr Prejean wrote a book) hmmmmm. I took great offense when the Sister testified that Dzhokhar Tsarnaev expressed sincere remorse for the pain he caused the victims of the Boston bombing, as to pull at the juror's heartstrings and not give him the DP. He did not express this remorse himself to all the victims- so important, IMO, in seeking forgiveness for his crime- and to me it was only her remorse being spoken at the trial. It would have been a lot more sincere to hear him express that remorse. If there was true remorse, why didn't it come from him? It leads me to believe that he hid behind her- a nun- and was not genuinely sorry for what he did and only wanted to not get the DP in any way possible, IMO.

I need to pray more ( and I need prayers for me) to get back on that path that I want my life to be on.

OK? OK. :winkkiss:

(I'll be back later to post some things- gotta go pick up my son's car with him from the car mechanic and I'm getting a new Winter coat :) , so I'll see you all later).
 
Congrats Bernina!!!! Beautiful filly! Love the markings. Do you need another "Z" name? I have spent months thinking of some just in case lol. So very happy for you. Oh how I wished my 2 fillies had made it into this world. I so wanted a "Bernina" of my own.

"Zella" looks lighter than Zuri did at birth or no? Do you think she might stay bay? I am so excited for you. I am also so glad that Mark is there to help you. I am also so happy that you are happy. You deserve to be treated with love and kindness and supported and validated.

PS: I am calling the new filly "Zella" until you decide her new name. I met this really cool woman once whose name was "Zella", who had the biggest heart, and was simply lovely both inside and out. I always thought if I got another GSD, I would name her Zella. Please forgive me. I am living vicariously through you. Xo
 
My post did appear on the feminine collective.com. It had to be approved. Interestingly enough, she wrote this article about visiting Heinous at Estrella, not Perryville. The comments are interesting as the author only responded to favorable comments. Not mine...
 
I am going to clean up the downstairs today as it has become a dumping ground for all kinds of things. I lost it last night as I just looked at the disorganization from contractors and shifting things from one room to another so the guys could work. It is going to take all day as I am so weak still, but I am determined to get it done.

My BFF has no clutter and her house is perfect. She does not hoard things and is able to keep her large home manageable, whereas my smaller home is a total wreck.

Her philosophy about throwing things away boils down to one premise:
Do you want your kids to spend weeks having to go through all the clutter, junk, outdated things if you died tomorrow?

Well of course, my answer is no. What is meaningful to me will not be meaningful to my children. However, since I have 11 staplers, 27 scissors, 4 electric pencil sharpeners, enough office supplies for a corporation, I figured they will be set for life. I don't want them to think I didn't leave them anything....
 
http://femininecollective.com/letter-arizona-jail-friendship-jodi-arias/#comment-6174

ETA: I responded back to her comment and I hope I was gracious. I read things like this and it is like a knife twisting in that part of me that I keep hidden from the world, and only share here.

I am reminded of the time when I found out that my brother's murderer was awarded "Prisoner of the Year" in 2007?" in Graterford Prison by a group of Quakers who visited prisoners. He received the award because he had done so much to help other prisoners educationally and spiritually. He died shortly thereafter a painful death from stomach cancer where he had not received the best of care.......

There is a God.
 
Well my kitchen cleanup lasted 10 minutes. I get so short of breath and my back muscles just spasm horrifically. I am drenched in sweat and I am very annoyed. Moderation and patience are not my strongsuits. I will tackle it again after laying down and reading here for awhile.

So since I obviously need to be entertained, what are you all doing today? Is anyone having good weather? Raking leaves? Shopping? Following an interesting case here? Having fun?
 
Well my kitchen cleanup lasted 10 minutes. I get so short of breath and my back muscles just spasm horrifically. I am drenched in sweat and I am very annoyed. Moderation and patience are not my strongsuits. I will tackle it again after laying down and reading here for awhile.

So since I obviously need to be entertained, what are you all doing today? Is anyone having good weather? Raking leaves? Shopping? Following an interesting case here? Having fun?

So far today I've helped run a stress test on the online game Lord of the Rings, been sucked back into reading and posting both on the Pistorius and Arias threads, have a load of laundry in and am trying to decide whether to do a roast or chicken enchiladas for supper.. oh and have drank about a pot of coffee so far. :facepalm:
 
Hey everyone!

All quotes snipped by me! :D

Bernina said:
You kids are aunties again!!!!!
Little girl born around 9:30 pm.....in the dirt per usual Kissy style, lol, which turned to mud with all the amniotic fluid.

:happydance: :confetti: :skip:

So glad to hear from you, and you are HAPPY!!! :skip:

YESorNO said:
There was/is now a turmoil that is going on in my, what I call, my "inner light"- the light that is attached to goodness, kindness, and compassion for others. It's a struggle, in any event, now ( and I don't want to lose that light) and that's why I needed a break this past summer from WS and murder to pray for more guidense in what , I think, I stand for.

And here I thought your BW was the problem! You know, there just some people that can't be helped... they are just PLAIN EVIL!! :scared: You won't lose your "Light" YESorNO!! She actually doesn't deserve ANY compassion when she said at the last court date - that Travis was concious when she slit his throat...

YESorNO said:
(I'll be back later to post some things- gotta go pick up my son's car with him from the car mechanic and I'm getting a new Winter coat , so I'll see you all later).

Oh boy - what kind?? You'll have to model it for us! :)

I like the name "Zella" ! and Zuri - don't do TOO MUCH!!! Can't someone else clean up the downstairs??!! :gaah: I know how you feel about a mess - neither do I, but you best stay where you are and have someone else do it!!

and I'm :laughing:
Zuri said:
What is meaningful to me will not be meaningful to my children. However, since I have 11 staplers, 27 scissors, 4 electric pencil sharpeners, enough office supplies for a corporation, I figured they will be set for life. I don't want them to think I didn't leave them anything....

Hi Daisymae! :wave: if you're still here...

Later folks!
:seeya:
 
Well my kitchen cleanup lasted 10 minutes. I get so short of breath and my back muscles just spasm horrifically. I am drenched in sweat and I am very annoyed. Moderation and patience are not my strongsuits. I will tackle it again after laying down and reading here for awhile.

So since I obviously need to be entertained, what are you all doing today? Is anyone having good weather? Raking leaves? Shopping? Following an interesting case here? Having fun?

:gaah: stay put!!!!!

Doing today - NOTHING!! :lol: The temps will be about 66 here today - no raking leaves, we just leave them for mulch... nope no shopping today - did that yesterday with my other errands!!

Definitely having FUN!! Enjoying life here! Perfect autumn day! :autumn:
 
Well my kitchen cleanup lasted 10 minutes. I get so short of breath and my back muscles just spasm horrifically. I am drenched in sweat and I am very annoyed. Moderation and patience are not my strongsuits. I will tackle it again after laying down and reading here for awhile.

So since I obviously need to be entertained, what are you all doing today? Is anyone having good weather? Raking leaves? Shopping? Following an interesting case here? Having fun?

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Oh Zuri~ read your post. That is what I get in my back? Spasms ! They hurt so bad I can't even straighten up, sweat , get weak, must lie down for a bit. I have lowdose hydrocodone for pain but it doesn't even put a dent in it. Sweetie you have my deepest prayers. You are a younger woman , I hate seeing you burdened with this pain.:loveyou:

P.S. so short of breath also. Kicker: my oxygen level runs 97!! go figure.
 
Later the same day...

Temps here in DC got to 80 degrees today. Breezy and warm, but still fall-like with leaves falling. This is November? While I'm concerned about climate change, I am loving this!

Same here, amazing temperatures (around 25° even up in the mountains) and such a beautiful blue sky and yellow-red-brown leaves shining in the sun.
Today I went for a hike close to Chamonix. It was quite a steep trail and not easy for me since I have been sick the last 3 weeks, could play tennis, ride my bike etc.
But it felt SO good to make the effort, to feel that energie is coming back into my body and when I arrived at the top I had to pass a kind of edge that opened up to a wide golden altiplano - wow, the beauty of this extraordinary landscape just paralized me and I started crying out of happiness - and you all were in my heart in that wonderful moment.
I hope that some of my pics turned out well so that I can share some of them with you.
 
You kids are aunties again!!!!!
Little girl born around 9:30 pm.....in the dirt per usual Kissy style, lol, which turned to mud with all the amniotic fluid.
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Still trying to figure out how to get pics off this cell phone, will figure it out when Marc comes later on this morning.
No name yet, but Zubaz was there as usual, and Kissy just had to wait til I got outside, and then she was down, out popped the little one, Kissy passed the after birth, and so far so good! Got her dried off and into the turn out with a bunch of straw in it.

And it's going to be a long night!!! Not too bad for just me and the kids.:happydance:

:thewave::thewave::thewave::thewave::Happybirthday::Happybirthday::Happybirthday::Happybirthday::fireworks::fireworks::fireworks::fireworks:
 
Well my kitchen cleanup lasted 10 minutes. I get so short of breath and my back muscles just spasm horrifically. I am drenched in sweat and I am very annoyed. Moderation and patience are not my strongsuits. I will tackle it again after laying down and reading here for awhile.

So since I obviously need to be entertained, what are you all doing today? Is anyone having good weather? Raking leaves? Shopping? Following an interesting case here? Having fun?

You're so right, Zuri, you HAVE to force yourself to moderation and patience as your body will recover but needs time. Think of all the cool plans you've made for the time when you'll feel good again; this might help you to accept the slow rythm your body still needs.

Besides the hike I did today (see post below) I didn't do very much. Before starting the hike, I had a nice and sunny breakfast together with a friend who spent the day with me. I brought a bag full with warm croissants - yummie!
The last part of our hike back to the car we had to do it in the dark as we had a hard time to leave the top of the mountain and the wonderful view of the Mont Blanc illuminated in pink by the sunset...MAGIC!
Now it's 11 pm here and I'll take a shower, go to bed and watch a movie.

You take GOOD care and take it slowly. :)
 
Good night, lovely Susza. I enjoyed your hike to the top. It sounds like a perfect way to end a beautiful day.

We went to visit mother-in-law and did a few small chores for her. We all went out to lunch .... yummy pasta for me. It has been a cool and windy fall day here, but very pretty. Not many leaves left on the trees, and what are left in the yard are manageable .... I will probably leave them where they are. The winds were kind to me this year. Now that we are back home, I am reading WS, catching up on emails, and chilling in my comfy chair, thinking of putting my warm PJ's on --- I had to turn the heat on to get rid of the chill in the air. Feeling rather snug and content at the moment.... and very lazy.

Zuri .... just close your eyes and pretend the mess is not there. You know you can clean and clean and in a couple days the dust and clutter come back, right? So you have had a huge project going on around you, and it will take time to get it back to what you expect. No shame in taking it slowly .... just attempt to do one small thing each day if you are able, and it will get done. I call it our "lifetime project", which keeps us from being bored. Above, all, doing more than you should only results in scary health setbacks, so preserve what you have gained at all costs. And if anyone complains ..... hand them a dust rag, a broom, or a mop!

Y/N, that was a very good post about your feelings on the death penalty and the JA mess. No need for apologies or worries about feeling that way. Your kindness and considerations come from your heart, which is always in the right place. Sometimes we all have a conflict with our principles, but manage to move forward with the best intentions.

Bernina, Kissiebaby is in good hands. Hope you are doing well with the new excitement. Try not to work too hard .... you will need decent rest to take care of a newborn. Congratulations again. I am glad you are sounding happy!

Wish you felt better, Nore. (((Nore))))
 
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