I'm with you 2goldfish - there is no way I could watch the reading of the verdict again - even with the sound off. I was physically and emotionally blown apart that day - and it's taken awhile to do the healing needed - even with that - I still feel like bits of my psyche are still barely glued back together again and are marked - extremely fragile.
While I believe I feel with my heart, I think in terms of actions, deeds and statistics - and that's the logical part of me. I start with the big picture, and then complete the picture tiny step by tiny step.
When I first came into this case - the day we all saw OCA strutting along in the blue hoodie -my reaction was WTH is going on here? While she sure looked hinky if not guilty, I like to base my decisions on the facts, then run it through my emotional senses - to see if I can live with what the facts have told me.
I don't like to think mother's kill their children. But the statistics tell me they do - so my emotional side says - who am I then to say they don't. It's weird because a lot of my decisions I don't even "like" - but there they are. Too based on evidence and fact to say they are "untrue".
People lie, but forensics and evidence don't. And there is no way this side of heaven OCA is innocent - no matter what lala land the jurors live in. Maybe the issue was these 12 people were too cut off from the real world, and that's why they decided the way they did. Many said they do not read the newspaper, do not watch the news and seem to be living on their own little fantasy island. Don't know, don't know, don't know, can't explain it...:dunno:
I came into this case wondering why did this child die? I got my answers. I'm still here because I still asking why? But this question is about the jury...Why? Why did you not give Caylee the justice she deserved?
I have not read or heard or seen anything that even comes close to answering that question. It's weird - I accept the verdict as final - but...WHY???
LG
The past week I have been flying by the seat of my pants, trying to stay in touch here and get the house ready for winter. I didn't want your wonderful post to get lost in here without hearing from me.....:heartbeat:
I tend not to visit profiles here. Although I've been a member since 2008, there was a period of time I wasn't able to sit at my computer too long. Since coming back I saw some old faces and new. I have gotten to know posters from what they post, at times not even thinking gender...:crazy:
You DO fit your screen name nicely, your logical side apparent and your emotional side coming through loud and clear also. I saw right away how you use both sides, much better at times than I, to reach your conclusions/opinions. If anyone has read enough of my posts, and they know who MacGyver is, then they realize I fix things. Sometimes I fix leaky faucets, am experienced at wheeling a band aid and at times sense certain posters frustration with me....:ignore:
Sometimes I post after great thought and other times..by the seat of my pants. Sometimes from my heart, sometimes from my head. I can watch part of the verdict video, set aside my heart, put my emotions in check and do my best to "put myself in the subjects shoes". Whether it be the victim or the accused, I always try to look at the situation from a "fairness" approach...:scale:
If anyone knows enough about me by now, they know some of "my story".
People deal with their life experiences in different ways. I choose humor, if I feel the need for sympathy I have no problem taking five minutes out of my day to give myself a pity party, (anymore than 5 minutes is a waste of time)...and then I move on. The fact I have experienced some emotional abuse helps me to be able to shut the emotional part off, put it in the parking lot, and see what sometimes I don't want to for the purpose of finding something out.....:detective:
I have always written better than I speak. When I start writing like I speak, I have blank spots...:floorlaugh:...At times , when talking to someone...they leave shaking their head...asking..HuH?....:waitasec:
Some find it endearing...some confusing...:banghead:
You are VERY observant and this shows in your posts. You are an irreplaceable staple in this site, along with so many others. Your posts are ALWAYS thought provoking...:waitasec:..... as well as heart felt.........:heartbeat:
You are also a wild ride girl!...:rollercoaster:
ps...I took some time yesterday to check out some avatars...I will take BL's advice and go to CP user, look through some of those..I'll know it when I see it!......:idea:
If anyones interested..check out new photos on my profile page...pictures of my dogs...Just wanted to catch up with everyone...still working in CA BOA thread...I will have an opinion soon...stay tuned and now back to our regulary sceduled programming....:great: