Thank you NMK for posting the first interview with EJ. The part I have listed below really disturbs me. It almost sounds like she's explaining why she killed Gabriel. She explains why she couldn't take him to a safe place, why she didn't want him with Logan. The comment from Tammi about being on a ledge and Logan pushing her off and then EJ uses the same saying-pushing me off the ledge. It's just creepy.
Reporter: Why didn't you, if you were is such dire straits, why didn't you just take the baby to a police station or why didn't you call Tammi and Jack and say, you know what, I can't handle this, you're, you're gonna have to help me here and leave the baby with...?
EJ: I thought about that. I thought about a lot of things, I didn't know what to do.
Reporter: So you didn't think that, you know, here I am in San Antonio Texas, I'm stressed out, I should just go to a police station and leave my baby there, and walk away at that point?
EJ: I did think about that.
Reporter: Well, then why didn't you do it?
EJ: Because I was afraid I was gonna get arrested for kidnapping.
TPS: Who told you that?
EJ: Logan (laughs).
Pause.
TPS: So basically, you were on the ledge, and Logan pushed ya off.
EJ: Yes,
TPS: That doesn't sound...Does that sound like he wanted his child back or...?
EJ: No, he never made one attempt to see him the whole time. I, I had him by myself. He never made one attempt, one phone call, he never, he knew where I was, he had my cell phone number. He never called to ask how me and the baby was doing, he only took things to court. he didn't care, I mean, maybe he can pretend to care now, but I really don't believe he cared, because hes really just after me, and pushing me off the ledge instead of just being civil.
Reporter: But, so, you, so, are you comfortable with the fact that you may never see your kid again?
EJ: No, I'm not comfortable with that. But, that's the decision you make when you give up your child.
Pause.
TPS: Now, let me ask you, why, why do you want to give your child up for adoption? Why, why wouldn't you want the dad to have the baby? Why wouldn't you want Logan to have his son?
EJ: Because I believe he's a very ugly controlling person and he's not capable of raising a child and he's not capable of taking care of the child. He's being supported by his own father and he just wants to make things ugly and I don't want the child to be in the middle of the ugly, ugly custody dispute and it already started off so ugly. And he's just going to make the child miserable and he's gonna make anyone that has anything to do with me, the mother, miserable.
Reporter: And you really felt like giving your baby away to perfect strangers was the right thing?
EJ: I did.