In OPs defense (as to why he did or didn't do things if the events unfolded in the way he said that they did) I have to say that unless you have lived through a moment in life that is horrific and sudden, requiring immediate action, you cannot be sure how you would respond. I have and when I called 911 I could not remember my address. What you do and what you know you would do under extreme stress is not always so simple under certain circumstances.
I dont know what happened in that house, only two people do, OP and RS. It appears that Oscars version does not fit the crime scene photos. His hot temper, immediate fight response, and his histrionics lead me to believe he could have killed her in a blind range, I also believe it could have been an accident. He could have gone into full recon and shot into the toilet, even if he heard Reeva screaming, he could have been in such a manic state that the reality of Reeva being behind the door was not an option in his mind. Blind with fear or rage?
He is not a very intelligent man. I can see a scenario where he thought there was an intruder in the bathroom, went into kill or be killed mode and then discovered the tragic results.
I dont think that the evidence thus far has proved either theory. OPs dramatics, (real, fake, for himself or Reeva, have not served him well) his statements such as I wish Reeva had told me it was her make him look like a cold hearted killer that is blaming Reeva for her own death. That said, I wish Reeva had told me it was her could be interpreted in a charitable light for OP, as in a remorseful wishful tone.
OP is admittedly not a very bright bulb, he is an extremely emotional guy and trying to judge him under his having killed Reeva and the constraints of courtroom decorum is difficult at best.
Is he a cold blooded killer trying to save his own



or is he a rather dull witted, paranoid hot headed, immature, boy man who has never had to take responsibility for his bad behavior who made an adrenaline fueled fatal mistake and tried to cover it up by making himself seem less culpable than he was? I havent made up my mind.
As to the restaurant gun incident, there is something deeply wrong and troubling with a man who shot a gun and insists that his finger was not on the trigger and it somehow magically went off. He is saying this in court, in front of a judge that will decide his fate, he really does remind me of a small child with a cookie in his mouth who insists to the point of throwing a tantrum that he did not put the cookie in his own mouth.
A bizarre man.