imo, this is not the definition of functional drug user or recreational user. spending the entirety of your paycheck, neglecting bill payments, and on top of that having drug dealers, searching u down for non payments by threatening harm being enacted if u do not pay up, imo, is not functional behavior or decision making. if, you did not have dealers willing to lease out drugs, then what?
in my youth, non crap, top of the line, coke, with less fillers, only cut with top of the line additives, was my groups choice, and there was no way, even the dealers, being non runners, middle man, between the main man, a cartel associate, that were close friends, the middle men, that is, would laugh hysterically, if someone were to ask for an advance, with pay promised later. the product was bagged & measured to precise precision in front of? us, as was protocol, and was expected on both sides. so was full payment.
that is my experience. I am glad u came out unharmed for non payments.