Now don't get me wrong-I am as far from a wise and perfect parent as you can get. My edest son has been referred to as my "guinnea pig" child, on whom I made so very many of my mistakes. But, even having 6 children, I have continued to make mistakes and bad choices right up to the present day. I am HORRIBLE. I cannot keep a kid on a schedule to save my soul. I cannot keep the laundry caught up and am lucky if I get them all a hot meal made once a day. My dishes accumulate for more than 24 hours and I have made some serious errors in judgement when it came to whom I allowed my teens to be friends with. I stay up too late, and am grouchy in the morning. I am scattered and chaotic and overwhelmed at times. You get my meaning...I am a MESS as a human, much less as a parent, but the one thing that all of my kids know is that I love them, and I expect them to be decent and moral human beings while they are making their way. Of course, sometimes, they aren't, and many times, I have not been either...but I AM there for them if they need me, and I AM willing to listen if they need me to, and I AM willing to put them in their place if need be. They know there is a line, and although my line may not be as narrow as some peoples, I do have one, and they know there will be reprecussions should they cross my very wide and permissive line.
I have learned by the trial by fire method of what mistakes NOT to make AGAIN!
But having said all of that, even at my lowest and worst day of depression or sadness or anger, I would never bring harm to my children on purpose and it would never enter my head to KILL one of them.
I will tell you this one more thing. My 2nd oldest is 17 and she knows I follow this case and we discuss it from time to time. I was nagging about Cindy and her cover-up and my daughter says "Now mommy, you know if that was ME you would have a hard time accepting it or believing it and you would not divulge everything you knew to the police" and then she said, "But you know I wouldn't do anything like that". And I said "The police would never get a shot a you if that was YOU and your baby was missing and I smelled a dead body in your car. You and I would go out in some deep dark woods and we would work it out right there." and she never missed a beat and said, "Just turn me in because I would rather face them than YOU." and I said "You mean you would fear a trip into the woods with me more than the police?" and she said "OH YEAH, definately!":rolleyes:
