Many people find religion in prison. It it improves some people. But I'm not the least bit interested in learning how religion has helped Tommy feel better about himself until he owns up to his own actions. Until then he can keep his weirdo ideas in that Facebook post about any particular "disturbance in space time" or "how important vibrations and frequencies actually are" to himself.
The fact that he talks in that Facebook post of being "exonerated" tells me that he hasn't accepted what he has done. I believe in forgiveness, but also believe that it must be proceeded by a truthful and complete admission of guilt.
Tommy has not, to date:
1. Admitted to murder. At the trial, he was "defending himself." In the Facebook post he only admits to the vaguest of things, for example speaking of the "severity" of his actions.
2. Admitted that the murder was pre-meditated. The texts make clear this was the case. The fact that he was at a low point in his life is only the teensy-beensiest of mitigations. He had weeks, if not months, to think about what he was embarking upon.
3. Retracted his claim that Sheila's death was precipitated by an argument she began. At trial, Tommy's only admissions about what happened essentially blame Sheila for her own death. Appalling.
4. Retracted his claim that the physical altercation which led to her death was started by Sheila. Again, claiming Sheila's death was her own fault.
5. Retracted his disgusting claim that Sheila made a racial slur against him. His position that Sheila was a racist must surely be deeply hurtful for her family.
6. Told the truth about Heather's role in the actual murder.
Tommy talks a lot about Sheila's family. He says he lives for them. I guess his idea of what would make them happy is hearing his salacious reports of Heather's lesbian liaisons, learning of his grandiose claim of becoming a prophet of God, starting fights, ignoring his daughter, composing a poem for Stella which wouldn't get a C from a generous middle-school teacher, having "Poor Tommy" articles published in an international newspaper as ineluctable and sleezy as the Daily Mail, asking that the guardian ad litem no longer receive health reports about Stella, and his constant moaning about his own suffering.
If he really wants to give Sheila's family closure, he can correct the record on the six listed things above. He can keep mute about Indonesian corruption for now. I'm happy with that. He can say, I didn't tell the truth at my trial. Quite frankly, it doesn't matter why he lied.
He should tell the truth about Sheila. But he doesn't care a bit about Sheila's family. His excuses and self pity aren't worth a thing to them.
As best as I can tell, Tommy's "religion" is all about worshipping Tommy and his suffering and his embarrassment and those terrible bags under his eyes. Poor laddie!
Until he finds a religious or philosophical doctrine that causes him to admit fully and truthfully what he has done, I'm not interested in his religion.
"I haven't said enough"
--R.E.M: "Losing my Religion"
