StarRemy8
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Ok, yes after reading this blog I think it is very safe to say he has relapsed. The 'About Me' section in this seems to be written by someone most likely intoxicated. With the only two blog posts being in Oct and Nov he highly likely he recently created this and I believe he was going on a downward spiral that either was the cause of the breakup/estrangement from his fiance or was a result from that and he had a breakdown. The blog is very telling as well about his past struggles, how he was in prison for a year when he was younger and about how he still hears the voices in his head tell him he is a drug addict that keeps relapsing way too many times. This is profoundly hard to read, addiction and mental illness are just so devastating. And to have come so far, done so well and turned his life around only to still feel not enough and struggle is simply heartbreaking. I honestly hope they find him soon, whatever state he is in, ideally alive and just hiding out, to bring closure to all of his loved ones. To me leaving his car, keys and belongings other than a backpack make me fear the worst but there is still hope.I find it sad that his own company’s Facebook page has made no mention of
him being missing. He seems like he has isolated himself and pretty detached from his company. After reading 1 of his recent (Nov13th) blog entry he comes off disjointed and has more than 1 YT channel with only 1 odd, cutoff video from October-seems he may have started drinking months ago perhaps some other mental health issue going on as well with what I am perceiving as potentially some paranoia-not sure if alcoholism can cause someone to feel paranoid though.
https://www.thebeaumann.com/