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This is me & the difficulty I have as well @JTR1973 . The only difference is that I, unfortunately, did watch/listen to the video. Although it gave me some insight into what possibly happened & the dynamics of this family, it is haunting so do yourself a favor and don't watch it. Once I heard it I can't get the cries of Gannon out of my head and then I go to what he must have thought & had to endure. Although my mind has wandered into what he must have thought or known when he got into the truck that morning, I try to immediately think of something else. It's unbearable.
My DH & kids have seen me cry many times over the past month. DH asks me why I keep reading, researching, and being involved if it upsets me so much. Ever since I saw the first pic of Gannon and heard he was missing, I felt a connection as I'm sure many of you did. Now I feel I owe it to this sweet, amazing little boy to stay invested & see this through to him being found and getting justice. My mind just can't even fathom the evil & absence of a soul that a person would have to have to do something like this to anyone, let alone a child! I trust that Gannon's goodness will ultimately prevail over her evil, guiding LE to find him and locking that monster away forever. It guts me that he had to endure this and that his goodness couldn't save him from her during his life.
I'll never forget Gannon, those pics that first drew me in, and the stories of his personality & spirit that have made us all fall in love with him! I will not loose hope that he will be found! However I do have to remind myself to take a break when it all gets too much, a luxury that sadly Gannon was not given.
You took the words right out of my mouth! I had to step away yesterday. All the stress caused a migraine and I just needed a break from the sadness. I’m now 2 threads behind, but I don’t have the energy today to catch up on things.
I want to see justice for Gannon, but I don’t know if my mental fortitude is up to following this tragedy on a daily basis. I know long time WS members can relate!