I would like to preface this post with an assurance that I am not victim blaming, just trying to wrap my head around this tragedy.
I have been following all the threads and have basically spent all free time catching for a few weeks.
I do not believe CW’s version of events, although I wanted to. I wanted to because I can’t understand how anyone could take the life of a child and then do the same to their mother.
It only made sense to me if there was a Medea type event. Medea was a Greek tragedy by Euripides ( circa 431 by)about a scorned woman who murdered her children out of spite in order to punish her husband Jason.
I grasped at reasons in order to understand the why.
I have concluded at this point that this has to be a crime of passion in some way. Only because I can’t believe that he planned this in advance. That pure evil can exist. I know it does, but don’t want to believe it.
I wondered if the patches could be to blame. I wondered if hormonal changes could be a contributing factor. I wondered if steroids, supplements, recreational drugs, anything, something, could be a reason. Maybe gay shame? Fear of being outed? I just hope we know the why someday.
Sorry for the rant, I’m just struggling to understand...
That we may never know. But one thing is, two kids in a short period of time is a lot of stress on both parents. SW wanted kids; in fact, with her lupus, she was not sure she'd have any and once it became obvious she could, she planned to have a big family.
A house with two kids might be a much bigger stressor on a man who was very quiet and reserved. To add to it, a double-income family, meaning both parents could be tired and both parents could have been stressed out.
(Not mentioned in this case but often happening in women with lupus) - occasionally, in case of lupus-anticoagulant, to carry pregnancy to term, daily shots of heparin-like substance are necessary. These shots are usually administered by the woman herself; she goes through a lot of work to have her babies, way more than usual.
Not for a second do I believe that the kids were harmed by the mother. Because if you see someone smothering your child, introverted or extraverted - your most natural instinct would be either to push the person away, or run out and yell for help. Imagine yourself in this situation.
Medea's situation was very different. First, Medea was a criminal - she killed her brother to help Jason and Argonauts. Then, back home she was a princess, while in Greece, she was no one, a foreighner, and now the man for whom she sacrificed so much was planning to marry a princess. Also, she foresaw that her children would be slaves of that new woman or her kids. For her, the situation was unbelievable humiliation, and she planned to deprive Jason of everyone he loved, the potential kingdom, and his posterity. She did not kill him; mourning the losses was meant to be his punishment. And also, she was a "royalty" and if you think of them in terms of Henry the VIII it would be more understandable.