QUOTE=2Hope4
(RSBM)
For some reason, Heather was troubled. I don't know the details behind the drug charge. Hydrocodone... I guess it could be a pill that she didn't have a prescription for? Though illegal, maybe she a bad toothache, or headache and a friend offered her one of theirs and she still had it. Maybe she was buying off the street. Maybe selling. I have no idea what details are real here. I can only say I have no idea why anyone would want the hydrocodone as it was like a sip of water to me...but then....every pain med they try me on doesn't seem to do anything! The pain is still there! Now if it gave me energy.....who knows, we might talk then! But seriously, I do NOT get the illegal aspect of Hydrocodone or why anyone would risk jail time over it. It just isn't 'all that' to me. No relief from pain, no mental high...just nothing. How does it normally affect people? What would be the most popular reasons for taking it illegallly? Does it really affect people in a way that makes them want it?? Do they swallow them? Crush and snort? Inject?
Hi 2Hope - I was addicted to Hydrocodone for several years and have been free of them for just over six years or so. Every pill I swallowed was prescribed by my doctor for a back injury. I loved the feeling of calm, relaxation and mental numbness they brought on (problems didn't need to be dealt with when I was high) with the feeling intensified if taken with alcohol. (I rarely drank though - the pills were generally enough to produce the lovely high that I needed.)
I went to therapy as I kicked this habit and learned that generally addicts are trying to utilize a substance as a bandaid on an emotional problem that is causing subconscious pain. I had always felt like a loser because I depended on the pills and that caused guilt, depression and mental torture beyond belief.....which in turn required more pain pills to numb all those feelings. (I was trying subconsciously to deal with a childhood rape that had not been dealt with properly but that's another story.) it's a visious cycle - if I had pills it was a good day, if I was waiting for my next prescription refill then the day totally sucked. When the prescription was ready to be picked up at the pharmacy I immediately was in a good mood and couldn't drive fast enough to get my hands on those pills so that I could feel good (normal) again.
These days I have learned to not worry so much (I was always a stress case and very high strung), trust in the Lord and use exercise to find that wonderful calm feeling I was chasing all those years in the pain pills. I have found exercise to absolutely be the best pain relief ever. Who knew?
I pray that Heather isn't addicted to Hydrocodone or some other chemical substance. If you are lucky enough to not overdose while using, withdrawal and becoming clean is its own private hell but so very worth it.