Long-time WS lurker (*years*), and now...jumping into the "deep end" to make a comment... (I apologize in advance that I'm not sure how to quickly zip back to locate certain phrases from past posts, but want to make a small connection -- at least one that's been in my head now for a week or so, ever since we heard the PC and announcement that CR was being held.)
Remember the first time of seeing CR's photograph? I do. I felt... (and forgive my putting this "out there" so bluntly)...a great "darkness" viewing his face (and yes, noticed that he made little to no eye contact with others). Last evening after logging off WS, I couldn't stop thinking about the whole "bl[o]cking out" phrase that CR used when he was first interviewed. 2 things: a.) he may have difficulty pronouncing a "short a" sound; thus, "blacking out" would sound more like "blocking out", and b.) JMOO that a deep, "darkness of spirit" -- perhaps like an emotional "black hole" dropped over him, the moment after the deed was done. Not wanting to reveal *what* was done, the closest -- and truly, the most literal words/phrasing that he could use to describe it, yet...*without* giving any details, was... "bl[o]cking out"... Of course, this is entirely speculation on my part (so please delete this immediately, if not allowed). Just my 2 cents' worth.
The connection of "blocking/blacking out" and abusive relationships w/regard to IM, and matters of abuse is this: When my mother was alive, she used to say, "Character is consistent!" She used this phrase to shed light on individuals who *appeared* one way in one setting, yet who had *acted* quite another way, when in another setting. I am *not* saying that CR attempted to take IM's life; I *am* suggesting that it *may* be possible (again, speculation here -- JMOO) that IM has experienced some of the same things that MT experienced... And surely IM had mixed thoughts when sitting in the courtroom earlier this week -- perhaps thinking of her child not having a father around in the future, but also, perhaps, thinking of some justice for *herself*/IM, for things that have never been reported. MOO