Pardon me a moment. I follow this case because I know and love the Daybell/ Douglas families. It has been haunting me the last few days that Tammy called for Chad after Alex tried to shoot her. In her Facebook post, anyone can get a taste of Tammy's personality. She contemplated smacking the assailant with the freezer meals she had made at enrichment night. This moment says so much about Tammy. She was funny, joyful, trusting, and always loving and serving her family. She was seriously one of the brightest lights I have ever met. And here's the thing. We know now from reports that Tammy likely knew at least something about the affair and it was still Chad she called on for help. He was actively plotting her murder and she still trusted him and she slept in the same bed with him. That's how unbelievable the idea was to her that he would have anything to do with the shooting. It was an impossibility. I just keep thinking of this as I continue to feel so much love and compassion for Chad and Tammy's kids. I know all of them. They are like their mom. Funny, kind, trusting and such bright lights. This ordeal has been beyond devastating for anyone who comes into contact with this story in any way but especially so for the Daybell children. They, like Tammy was, are still in a position to some degree of turning for help and counsel to the very person that has been causing them all this trauma and grief because to them, the idea that he could be in any way responsible for their mom's death is impossible. I know from the outside it strains credulity that they would be in denial about Chad's part in things but it is because of their goodness and their mother's goodness that they can't see it. They are truly victims, every bit as much as Tammy and my heart breaks for the moment they have to come to terms with the fact that their father not only killed their mother, but then used them to bolster his own defense. They have so much pain ahead of them still. Sorry for the personal nature of this post. I'm just up in the night, sad about this. It took me a long time to believe Chad was guilty. I can't even imagine what this has been for his kids.