I think she gathered her weapons in the weeks prior because she had yet another mental breakdown. Her long e-mail about just being friends, and that she was hurt when all the other girls got mentions and she won't (I actually believe due to Travis' stature in PPL and how beloved he was, he had quite the cult following) In her immature mind, she became obsessed with him because he was charismatic, and going places and she would go with him, he was the center of attention with friends and at work, and she will zip tie herself right to him.
When this broke down in what I consider a very short relationship between them (because they went TOO FAST and got into too many very edgy things sexually too soon, too much too fast - man, they left nothing for the honeymoon) this crash and burn occurs and she was unstable to begin with.
There are clear signals the last 3/4 weeks she was a volcano about to erupt. (even friends saw it) I think the fatal trip to Mesa was her LAST attempt to see if this is it? Is it really it? You and me, we are done? right? no more? for sure this time? Because I am off to Utah next to grind with my boring new potential husband? So tell me now? you and me, girlfriend boyfriend yes or no?
I think she did not drive there "to kill him" I think she drove there to see if this is really it?
Why in god's name he let her in.
Once in, I am obsessed with what happened next? What was his tone, what did she say? That first few moments in time in how he reacted to seeing her bought him 12 hours more of "life". Again she had a tiny glimmer things will turn around, he will say to me that he doesn't want to be without me.
If he had, that gun & knife would never have come out.
But he didn't, he somehow said and did things that dragged this fateful event another 12 hours until she was told again, its over, he had sex with me, he is seeing me off to Utah and he is in the shower, he is talking about how we each have someone new in our lives.
Not what she wanted to hear.
