Once again, you seem to think that there’s some motive here for me to convince YOU. If If I convinced everyone, or no one, on this forum, at the end of the day it doesn’t actually change anything. This isn’t a court trial. You understand this right?
Furthermore, I’m perfectly aware that there actually is no convincing you. Anything I tell you will always be me completely written off as deflection. That’s perfect fine by me, but it’s your loss, not mine.
I’d also like to point out a clear an very obvious doubly standard here. You say, “Until LE can give us info that points to them, I cannot and will not consider them as less than a victim.”
Do you grant me this same curtesy? Of course not. The police have yet to present even a single shred of anything even resembling anything like evidence that I had anything to do with Alex’s death. The reason for this is because there isn’t any, and I know they know this. Nor will there ever be any because I’m not a murder.
So to be completely honest with you, I have absolutely ZERO fear that LE will ever try to hold me responsible for this crime.
I do, however, have a great deal of fear that LE either botched this case by over looking the parents in the beginning, or that they know the parents are guilty but lack the evidence to ensure an actual conviction in court.
As far as “bashing the family” goes. Well I really hate to have to tell you this but everything I’ve said about Nikki and Franz is true and LE knows this is true. Or is that just irrelevant to you? Like doesn’t matter to you if it’s actually true or not... it’s not “nice” and people should only be allowed to say “nice” things about her parents. Never mind LE has repeatedly called them suspects in this case.
Nothing about your expressed views here have any basis in objectivity or rationality. You’re clearly always going to view this from the emotional lense that you just don’t want it to be the parents because it’s such a repulsive conclusion. And I would agree with you, this isn’t a conclusion I wish for or hoped to come to in any way when I started this journey.
I never wish or ask for any of this, losing Alex, having my life turned upside down, dealing with severe depression for the first time in my life, having people look at me with suspicion for absolutely no reason other than I loved and dated her. I never wished for any of this, especially the eventual conclusion I came to.
Im honestly am filled with tremendous guilt they I ever let her move back into that house with Franz. I should have been more comprising and less stubborn about getting married and moving into a bigger place together.
I feel guilt for not being there to protect or save her in that moment when she needed me to protect her. I was an army medic for 6 years, 2 tours in Iraq, I’m excellent at saving people from life threatening gunshot wounds. If I couldn’t have stopped it I could have at least saved her life if I had been there. I think about how scared she must of been laying there on that guy’s front lawn bleeding out.
These are the kind of thought that haunt me daily. But I’m not asking for anyone’s sympathy or benefit of doubt.
It’s not like I’m just asking this for myself but no one else. I don’t want ANYONE to be giving any benefit of doubt, that includes her parents! I want everyone to be looked at, everyone questioned, no one should be able to play the hurt feelings card to escape this scrutiny. I want answers and I want justice, however unwelcome and appalling that eventually conclusion ends up being.
