I find it hard to believe an eighteen yr. old would go through a pregnancy, face all the unknowns, and not tell anyone. A typical eighteen yr. old would be scared to death and seek emotional support from someone.
I can't wrap my head around Skylar caring enough to name the baby.
Skylar's aunt, best friends, boyfriend Brandon and Skylar herself all have said Skylar didn't confide in anyone about her problems. One example: her closest friend has said Skylar never talked to her about her EDs, even though everyone who knew her knew she had them.
That she didn't tell any of her closest friends of her pregnancy was entirely in keeping with how she handled any problem. As was her denial to herself for many months that she might be pregnant.
As for naming her baby.....
I'm past that point in a trial/case when I'm still trying to puzzle out what I think most likely happened, or still forming an opinion about the strength of the legal case presented at trial.
Why would she give her stillborn baby a name or how would SHE have interpreted Kim's texts are exactly the kind of psychological questions I always find fascinating, however abstract and unknowable are the answers.
My earlier post about the texts between Kim and Skylar about BC pills and pregnancy and Skylar's "belly" wasn't about my belief or disbelief that Kim knew Skylar was pregnant.
My (abstract, just trying it on) question was....how would Skylar interpret those texts from Kim? Many of us, after the fact, read them and are convinced Kim knew Skylar was pregnant. If that conclusion -whether true or not- is so easy to make, isn't it entirely possible Skylar believed- rightfully or not- that Kim did know?
So, putting together the known pieces into an entirely theoretical, speculative scenario...
Skylar didn't want to go to the OB/GYN, Kim insisted. Specifically to get BC pills, though Skylar had already been sexually active for many months. It's clear from the texts that Kim was aware of this.
So, again and at every point in this scenario- from Skylar's perspective- what is Kim communicating to her? Why now, why the urgency? Why is Kim saying it makes me sick for you to have to do this, but I want you to have a future, getting pregnant would mean you can't go to college, and BTW...I wouldn't help you take care of a baby.
And after the appointment, what to make of Kim saying: " I'm just being honest, you have a big belly, even your dad has commented about it, and did the DR say anything to you about your belly?"
There's plenty more that could be brought in, but using just that little pile...
You're Skylar. You believe your mother knows you're pregnant, but she doesn't acknowledge that to you, and doesn't ask you any of the obvious questions she would if she wanted to know.
Instead, what she makes clear to you is you need to end a pregnancy she wants to hear nothing about. She's already made that crystal clear. Yet she hacks into your email then confronts you with confirmation of your pregnancy, telling you she's freaked out. Is she asking you to lie to her?
What other conclusion can you come to, because she now has definitive proof of your pregnancy, but instead of using that as an opening for you to come to clean, she doubles down on how completely unacceptable your pregnancy is to her?
Fast forward to giving birth, by herself, in the bathroom. (Suspend disbelief if you think her baby was born alive). If you're Skylar, why in the world would you ask Kim for help? Kim has told you it's your problem and I don't want to know.
Your baby is now very, very real to you. And she's stillborn. You haven't allowed yourself to feel any attachment to her before, but she's your baby. And born dead. How could you not feel guilty? When you know that you abused your body for the entire time you were pregnant- including taking laxatives to please Kim, doing everything in your power to lose the weight that first you didn't know was a baby, then you didn't want to believe was a baby?
You didn't go back for the ultrasound. You didn't call the DR back or return for whatever prenatal care he talked to you about but you didn't even really hear, because you were still in shock about having your pregnancy confirmed.
And ....you didn't want the baby, and now here she is, stillborn. Your fault.
Skylar says she held her baby again, even after she was sure her baby wasn't breathing, had no heartbeat, wasn't alive. Many peeps don't attach any significance to the fact Skylar buried her baby and put flowers on her grave, and/or think the fact Skylar didn't wrap her baby up before burying her is what's most telling.
I think the fact Skylar buried her baby instead of throwing her away like trash is not only meaningful, but entirely consistent with a scenario of feeling intense guilt about the fact her baby was stillborn. As is naming her baby.
Which again, she did before lawyers or court or trial, and because it is impossible to realistically believe otherwise, without being told by her parents or anyone else it would look better if she named her.
ETA: Kim may or may not have believed BC pills would cause Skylar to abort, but there's evidence enough to believe Skylar knew better.
