Random thoughts based on so, so many great posts! Apologies for the length of this...
Doctoring her journals is exactly something a psychopath
would do. I've no idea if she did, or didn't, but I can say with complete confidence they're often thinking 20 moves ahead. It's difficult because normal people just don't think the way they do - they see life itself as a spy game of sorts...they're already paranoid and delusional anyway but they also love to create chaos and drama. So yeah, I think it's wholly possible she edited or created the journals with the specific intent they be read by others.
I knew she wouldn't be able to not express her condolences to Flores. Unfortunately, I think their pain made her day. She had to revel in it. Words cannot express how much I hope she does get death.
Just to clarify something - this defense isn't Jodi choosing not to show remorse - she very literally does not
feel remorse. To her, her actions that June day are totally justifiable. Any remorse she has shown is an act, she mimics what she thinks she should do or say...but Jodi is a bad psychopath and it's usually very transparent that her expressions aren't genuine (like the 18 page letter). It isn't a conscious decision to trash Travis
instead of showing remorse - it's that her hatred of him, even now, supersedes everything else - to include self-preservation. Her goal is to get the entire world to understand just how horrible he was, to hate him as much as she does, because then we'll understand how wonderful Jodi is for having tolerated it all as long as she did and comprehend there was no other choice but to take his life. It's really no different than asking anyone of us to apologize for something we really aren't sorry for - it would come across as shallow and insincere. I don't believe she can even rationalize if she hadn't killed him she wouldn't be here because that would require her to admit, to herself, that killing him was indeed wrong. I don't think she feels it was, even now. If she did, we'd see examples of genuine remorse.
I think she truly does believe she will one day go free. Psychopaths move goalposts when life proves them wrong. She believed she could convince friends and family, then detectives, then the first jury...now she feels she can convince this one (the deviancy of Travis is seriously ramped up thanks, in part, to evidentiary rules) and if that too fails, she'll blame her family, attorneys, judge, jury for all of it and move her focus onto her appeals. I believe Jodi will go to her grave believing she will one day be vindicated. To believe anything else would require her to be honest with herself about her biggest mistake - and she doesn't even see it as a mistake.
Her test scores changed but they changed the wrong way. She went from some physical abuse to none. I spent hours racking my brain trying to get into hers (and deserve hazard pay!). That works against her...doesn't it? And why did demanding sex change from some of the time to always instead? Then I thought how the trials are different...the first trial we had Alice and Snow White. This trial we have a full on assault of Travis the deviant pedophile. Now her changing her answers makes sense - she probably couldn't recall exactly how she'd answered the first time BUT she knew exactly where each trial was headed long before we got there and answered to bolster the central claim. Proof positive, as if we needed it, that her whole defense is simply engineered by her Machiavellian Einstein brain.
I've said before that a good psychopath can leave you questioning your own reality. You can't literally see several examples of psychological abuse at play like we can with Jodi. Good psychopaths lie seamlessly, effortlessly. Jodi, when caught in an obvious lie, piles another lie on top. She truly believes if she can say just one more thing she can convince everyone...so my money is still on her taking the stand. If she doesn't, it won't be because her attorneys have advised her not to or because she sees Martinez as a threat (she sees him as an enemy, no doubt, but still considers herself smarter and more capable). If it were me, I'd be hiding under Sherry's robe before I let Juan cross me.
All JMO