Corrected and moved forward from previous thread ...
The following tape extract (for those who cannot view the jailhouse tape) is the most fascinating to me. Barely a word about Caylee. In Casey's mind, it's all about Casey.
George: If for some reason there's something that hasn't been told or hasn't been said, you ...
KC: Dad, I told Jose. No, I've given him the information to give you guys. You guys have given everything to the police. They're [LE] not helping us, it's obvious. We KNOW their intentions. So I'm sorry, I've helped in every way that I possibly can since the day I got here. They didn't even give me 24 hours to help them, the police, without putting me here. So it's obvious where everybody's intentions lie. I know you guys want Caylee. I want Caylee more than anybody can understand. But I can't do anything. I can't do anything from where I'm at.
[Discussion of possible meeting DELETED.]
KC: Jose is making sure that I'm well aware of everything that's going on. He's keeping me completely updated on stuff which I in every way appreciate because he's all I have to go off of with stuff.
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George: I want you to realize something. Number 1 or at least number 1.1 should be you and Caylee. Thats the way it should be. It shouldnt be Jose, then you, then Caylee and everything else is falling in line. It's has to be first you two, you and your daughter, he's focusing on.
KC: Well he's [Jose] focusing on Caylee and I. You guys are focusing on Caylee, I know I'm still part of your focus but she's your main focus and I understand that. Dad, I know where everyone's priorities are. I knew that from the day that I got here.
George: ... Well, ... you're the one who can control everything.
KC: No, I
Dad, please!
George: I'm not trying to get you upset. But I
KC: I AM upset now. I am completely upset. Number #1, the media is going to have a freakin' field day with this. I wasn't even supposed to "take" this.
George: [inaudible]
KC: Let me speak for a second! Dad, I let everybody talk. They're not releasing it? Well, I hope not. I'll keep saying whatever I have to about the police if they dont let it go.
George: Here's Mom. [Hands phone to Cindy.]
KC: You don't want to go ... [Raised voice.] Can someone let me speak?!! Come ON! GOD!!!
Cindy: Casey, hold on, sweetheart. Settle down.
KC: No ones letting me speak. He wants me to talk and then ...
CA: Alright I'll listen to you.
KC: Give me three s-e-c-o-n-d-s! [Pause.] I'm not in control of any of this because I don't know what the hell is going on. I don't know what's going on. My entire life has been taken from me. Everything has been taken from me. You don't understand. Everybody wants me to have answers, I don't have any answers because I don't know what's going on. I have no one to talk to and Jose when you come ... I can't even say anything to you guys besides telling you I love you. I want Caylee. That's not even being put on the air which it should be. It's everything else that I've thought, what I'm saying. That's why I haven't been calling, or taking calls. We said we weren't going to do that to make sure I wasn't going to give anybody anything else to throw against me. Even with me giving them nothing, they're still doing it. So ... how am I ...?
Cindy: Everything's going to go away with you. You'll be fine once Caylee is found.
KC: Mom! I understand. Do you understand my position on this? You guys expect me to have a thousand answers. And I have nothing. I've been here a month! Out of contact with everybody except you guys on the rare occasions that I get to see you and my attorney. Do you understand? What am I supposed to learn from that? What am I supposed to learn from that? The first week and a half, yeah I tried to help you guys backtrack. Again cause that's all I could do was backtrack. I can't backtrack on anything. I've been removed from the situation and you guys are not understanding my side on this and I'm sorry.
Cindy: No, I understand.
KC: No, you don't, cause you're still asking if there's anything I can tell you that's gonna help. That I'm the one that can do it. I can't. The opportunity was there that I probably could have helped ... I'm trying. I was trying. There's nothing more I can say or do until I'm home, but even then I don't know what I can do from that point, but I can at least do something other than sit on my butt all day and read or look up stuff for my case. That's what I have to do right now. That's what I have to focus on now. That has to be my focus. That has to be my focus right now.
Cindy: You can focus on Caylee.
KC: Mom? [Said angrily.] If that's my focus, which it is, I can't do anything from here. I don't have access to the Internet. I can't make phone calls. I can't go anywhere. I already told you, Mom, I told you everything!
Cindy: I've thought about everything that you've told me in the last month.
KC: I'm sorry but that's all I can do. That's the only knowledge that I have.
Cindy: I was in Lake County a few days ago.
KC: Okay. [Said calmly.]
Cindy: Is there anything there?
KC: [Yelling.] MOM! [Quickly calms herself.] I'm sorry. I love you guys. I miss you.
Cindy: Alright Sweetheart, you're upset. Here's Dad.
KC: I'm going to hang right now. I'm frustrated and angry and I'm going to just walk away right now.
Cindy: No, no please don't.
KC: I'm frustrated and angry, and this is the first time Im truly, truly angry this entire time. But I'm so beyond frustrated with all of this, I can't even swallow right now, it hurts.
Cindy: You just have to understand we're all going in so many different directions. We just want to go in the right one.
KC: Well I can't point you in that direction when I'm literally at a standstill. And I'm just so removed from the situation as someone who has no clue about what's going on in the least. Even random people I've even never met have more of an outlook on this than I do right now. It's really sad. It's really really sad that I literally have nothing right now. Nothing.
Cindy: None of us have anything right now, Casey.
KC: You guys have each other. You're sitting next to Dad. You still have Lee. You have access to our community and to our family and friends, to our house. You're taking for granted the fact that I have no one to comfort me but myself. And the occasional visit which has to be business for the sake of finding Caylee. To say I ... I may look like I'm in charge, well, but I'm completely pushed away from everything.
Cindy: I know, but every time you visit, you can tell, they have to honor your wishes in this case. That's all Dad's trying to tell you. Jose has to honor your wishes.
KC: He has been. He has been with everything. Everything.
Cindy: He's in New York right now for a couple days.
KC: He's doing stuff for business for me.
Cindy: I know.
KC: Well, Mom! You're not telling me that I don't know. Please I don't want to get frustrated with you!
Cindy: In his absence. Dominic's a good person to talk to if you want to talk to anybody.
KC: Mom, I ... Thank you. I've already talked to everybody. I know who I'm allowed to talk to, who I'm not allowed talk to. Who I can see, who I can't see. Who's going to see me, who's not going to see me. I've already arranged all that. It's already been set up. Jose's the one person keeping me in the loop because he's the one person that can, and he's making sure that he's doing that in every way possible.
Cindy: Well, I just hope he's telling you honestly what you're up against.
KC: Mom, I know what I'm up against. Do you guys know what I'm honestly up against? And keeping me here, you're not helping me help myself... I'm sorry to say that.
Cindy: We don't have the means to get you out, sweetheart. We honestly don't.
KC: I understand that. But the opportunity was there and it wasn't taken advantage of and ...
Cindy: We didn't have an opportunity. I don't know where you're hearing that, I honestly don't.
KC: Let Dad pick up the phone, please, I don't want ... Give Dad the phone.
George picks up the phone.
KC: This is seriously the first time that I've been angry. That I've been frustrated to where I can't even think straight at this moment. Throughout this entire thing I was pissed off. That day at the police station I was mad when all of that happened, but I tried to look at things objectively for this entire time, I haven't sat in my room for the entire month and not once, not one time. But right now this is the most agitated and frustrated that I've been, even when I sat with Jose and watched that episode of NG and stuff was being said about Mom and about me and Tim everything else stuff that I heard. I was frustrated but I've let it go. Right now I'm so hurt by everything. I don't even know what to say. And I hate to say that.
George: Well I'm not trying to upset you and neither is Mom. Were not trying to. And if we are, I'm sorry for that.
KC: I know that's not your intention. But you have to understand where I'm coming from in this, and obviously none of you are. Youre expecting me a month literally out of the loop, to have some new insight on stuff? I mean ... really?
George: I realize this is hard to talk about especially ...
KC: Because I can't do anything. Because I've done everything! I've said everything. I've sat and thought about everything. That's all I can do is sit and think. Everyday. And that's what I've done. Every bit of information I have it's been passed on. I know that.
George: You know, it's just hard for you and it's hard for us. We've never gone through anything like this ...
KC: Well obviously not. We need to stick together, but it's hard to do at this point. For Mom to say that you guys have nothing when I told her ... you guys all have each other to lean on. I don't have anybody. I have myself and the occasions that I can see my attorneys, they are trying to do everything for myself and for Caylee. So you guys have the crutch or multiple crutches throughout the community with everybody.
George: Well, even that is waning and is going to change. We have our issues each and every day.
KC: Dad, I know it's going to take its toll on everybody, but please understand where I'm coming from in this. Ive been praying every single day for insight. And everybodys thoughts, and everybodys feelings. So I know where you stand and where youre coming from and I know where you're sitting right now. And Mom. And Lee. And Joe Schmo walking down the block. I see this every day
for the last month. I can see everybody's side. But the worst part is no one can see my side. I have to keep my mouth shut. I have to keep my mouth shut about how I feel and almost everything else. Because all I have to do is [inaudible] and the detectives and whoever else will throw it right back in my face when this goes to trial.
From this point on Casey calms down as she talks to George about having a meeting with him, an approaching cold, then speaks to Cindy to say she's sorry but how she had to get out her frustration. Near the end of the tape Casey says:
KC: I know in my gut Mom she's still alive. I can feel it. She's coming home.