The very first week of this trial I was new here. A seasoned poster 'talked' about her cancer and updated the other ones who already knew her and knew what she was going through. Then out of nowhere another poster came along and attached his/her comments to the bottom of the cancer victim's post. Those comments were a bit harsh and I couldn't understand why he/she attached the comments under the sick woman's post. It looked like he/she was attacking. I jumped on the second poster hard. It was not nice of me to do that and to say some of the things I said to the second poster--there is no excuse for it. But what I was really mad about was the word CANCER. I hate that disease and just recently lost my very young brother and my mom to the disease. They were the only family I ever had--except for my own family now. I was lashing out at the disease by way of my post....and it was totally uncalled for. Then the second poster, whom I lashed out at, stated he/she also had cancer and had endured a treatment that day, etc. and was sort of apologizing if he/she came off as being harsh. So I really felt bad.
I said all of that to say this--I know some of the older folks on here thought I was mean and hateful and wanted to cause trouble. But I'm not, and I didn't. Anytime the word cancer comes up it just drives a stake through my heart. I am very aware of the people who show up out of nowhere--haven't been following the trial on here like most of us have--and they start throwing out posts that are disrespectful and sometimes nasty...and they leave and sometimes never return. I recognize them because I did it myself one time. And I am so very sorry for it now. I have grown very fond of most everybody who posts on here on a regular basis and will miss you guys when this trial is over.