So many things don't make sense or add up. It is so hard to know what is real or not and the gag order dang sure doesn't help our wandering minds. The waiting to see is the hard part. It has to be agony for Heather's family and friends. Beyond agony. It makes me ill and hurts my heart.
I have been sick this week as well as hurting my back which put me on a lot of meds that ultimately leaves me in a blue fog. I have cried nonstop these past few days, multiple reasons really but this is at the top of the list. It makes me physically sick to know TM has done nothing but play games this whole year. I'm so scared she's going to get off, and then she's going to be free. Free to torment. I'm not going to lie, I'm apprehensive not just for the torment she could cause the Elvis family, but all of us who were her 'friends' that didn't stick by her side through this. She scares me and rightfully so.
I think she's scary because what she did is so diabolical and unhinged and she was so spine-chillingly loose-lipped on social media. Heather's case has had an impact on me as well. I remember when I first read about it...I had been on a news site that led to me a story that led to her story...or some such chain of links. Her story bothered me early on. I came here to see what was being discussed.
I've always felt this will have some sort of 'surprise' ending, for lack of a better term. Don't know why. If that's the case, I hope it means justice for Heather and peace for her family. But like you, I fear that these two may get off.
I think the trial, if it goes to trial, will be drama-laden. I say "if" because TM is so nuts, in my view, and SM likely has so many secrets, that anything is possible.
I cannot imagine what this season is like for the Elvis family and while knowing for certain one's beloved child was murdered, I would think it would be a blessing for them to either know where she is, if, tragically, unrecoverable, or to have her remains for a proper laying to rest. I often think about how difficult it would be to relinquish all hope and declare her deceased. While she is clearly gone forever at the hands of these two individuals, as a parent or other family member, I can appreciate the desire and need to have hope. To do otherwise would, for me to me personally, feel like I had abandoned or betrayed the person. This may be irrational, but when there is no proof or body to lay to rest, I think the psychological burdens are quite different than getting the call that indeed the end has been verified. Both outcomes are horrid. But I would lose my mind giving in to a sense of futility when my loved one was God knows where and I had only limited information about what probably happened.
It's easy as a bystander to say that anyone who's been off the radar this long is clearly dead, but I don't think the psyche of a loved one uses such cool logic. I can appreciate the feelings of the Elvis family as they endure the anniversary and try to get through what should be such a joyous season for family.
Take care of yourself. I think we all feel a kinship with Heather and her family and I can only imagine how difficult it is to be closer to the case than the average person.