Just because you have been correctly diagnosed and you are meds, doesn't mean you are the correct meds.
I was diagnosed as bi-polar at 19. In that first year I went through 36 different medication trying to control it. I quit it all! One med worked, but I couldn't sleep, so they gave me a med to sleep. That med made me drowsy when I was trying to wake up, so they gave me a med to awaken me in the morning.....ect...
What it came down to, was one medication that did work, required 4 more to get me through the day! Even then, I was a robot! Life sucked. I thought of suicide everyday.
15 years later, here I am. I am on only four medications that 'control' my mental illness. It isn't a solutions. It isn't a cure. I am still suicidal at times. I am still manic at times. But it is 'close'.
It took me 19 years to realize I would NEVER feel normal. Ever. The best I could hope for was feeling not bad. Going off your meds after this kind of diagnosis is normal. It happens to ALMOST EVER person who has been diagnosed.
Until you can live in that brain with that disorder.... don't judge them... YOU HAVE NO CLUE!