Thursday, September 24, 2009
**** "Razakel" and "SKR"
Current mood: pissed off
I sent a message to "Razakel", one of the rappers that Melanie was really into. I was shocked to recieve a reply. Read for yourself...
My message:
This is just something that's been going through my mind ever since I received the news...
I knew Melanie for six years. We were extremely close for about five of those six years. I mean we were so close that people at school told us they assumed that we were dating because of us always being together. We were like that, honestly, up to about the time she started getting into "SKR". Now I'm not here to bash you, but I'm just saying her talking about "SKR" stuff all of the time started to cause us to slowly drift apart and not talk as much. A few months ago, I actually took her off my friends list on here because I was tired of all the bulletins I saw being about "SKR". Little did I know, she'd never be on there again...
So here's what I'm getting at: what are your feelings on this whole thing? To be honest and blunt, you rap about these kind of things in like every song she ever had me listen to of yours. Now that it's real and not just a song, how do you feel about it? Are you still going to rap about this kind of stuff so that another **** can interpret these lyrics as being serious? I'm just saying that if this all of this was done by someone who liked my music, wanted to create his own music just like mine, and then actually took those lyrics to heart, I'd seriously reconsider what I was doing to make sure another ****ing tragedy like this never ****ing happened again.
I know there's a good chance that you aren't going to reply to this. I just had to get this off my chest though because for the first time in my life, someone that used to be a really good friend is ****ing dead for no ****ing reason...
Her reply:
yea, well i do reply to my messages so u can go ahead and take back that last statement.
I didnt know Melanie for as long as you did, i only knew her for 3 years, up untill last year is when she became an "apostle" and that means, one of my online promoters. I remember Mel coming to me saying her freinds were drifiting apart from her prolly becuz of skr and she flatout said she did not give a ****, becuz hey man, she was one of our BIGGEST supporters next to ragdoll. thats why me and her were close she was a supporter then we became closer friends.
what am i feeling on this whole thing? how bout you take a guess. just becuz i rap about some evil **** does NOT mean i dont have a ****ing heart, musick ASIDE, they were BOTH my friends, i lost my homies i feel awful, then knowing who did this to them completely ****ed me in the head. I aint gonna lie, i aint feeling as bad as like her immidiate family i think what THEY are goin thru is nothing compared to us, but we were the one that had to tell mel's mom everything. we told them more before the cops even "confirmed an identity."
I aint stoppin my musick, if anything i'm coming at it even HARDER, WHY? cuz thats why mel and doll liked us from the beggining, so yea, expect far worse things to come out my mouth, becuz if i do stop or tone down, the media wins, the stupid ignoarnt ppl pointin fngers at the musick wins, and **** THAT. if ppl wanna blame the musick/lyrics, thier flatout ****ing IGNORANT. the musick didnt pick up that weapon and bludgeon 4 ppl. a stupid KILLER did.
and u know whats funny, is that mels dad just called us the other day and was thanking us for everything and telling us
"i know this isnt about the musick, i listen to iron maiden, thats not far off"
so maybe u should have a little convo with him instead of coming at me.
its not my fault you dissed your "friend" (as you say) over some BULLITENS, thats not a real friend to me. stupid things like BULLITENS dont come in between "friends" but hey thats just me.
so ima go ahead and delete you, becuz you do sound ****ing ignorant, and i cant stand it at this point. no hate or nothing, but you are not my friend as for all i know you werent hers either your prolly some **** tryna get attention for this like the past 10 ppl that are coming at me with the same ol story u just told me.
i'm sorry for your loss, but it was a loss to me too. i hope we can all remember mel for who she was, nock she listent for what kinda musied to. She was a beautiful girl, and arguing over dumb **** like lyrics AINT gonna bring her back, lets be realistic about things for ****s sake.
I hung out with mel at the fest, i was doing her hair for 4 hours up in my hotel room with ragdoll helping me, and both of those girls were the happiest ppl i knew in my life, and at the whole 12 hour show, they were front row n center the WHOLE time. Melanie and her MOM made me a gift bag with all sortsa kool ****, books, bookmarks her mom made me, mel gave me her pillow case, believe me she was my friend.
but for me to tone down or even THINK about stopping or quitting, lets stupid win, and guess what, its not happening under my watch.
SKR is already being made the scapegoat in all this and thats fine, someones ALWAYS gonna point the finger, and sadly it has to be at us, but hey it is what it is.
once again, sorry for your loss, my condoloences and respects to you and yours.
much love.
-Razakel
p.s. no need to reply brotha your deleted and blocked. just like every other .
http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=22247412&blogId=511583253
Also worth reading the comments there.
