Agreed.So, I have spent the last day and a half reading through lots of old material. Whew.
At this point, IMO, I agree with those who say this was not an intentional homicide. I do not believe they ever intended to kill Noah. But I don't like calling it an accident, either. I will say it was not intentional but I think reckless actions were taken which demonstrated a disregard for his life, and for Baby A's. Actions that any reasonable adult would know put their lives at great risk.
IMO, I don't know how well either of them were equipped to be parents (especially AW) but I think the lack of skill and sound judgement was exacerbated by drug use.
I think Noah was placed in the tank and I think there was someone else involved. I think one or more people close to them at least knew what happened and/or were involved afterwards.
And that's that I think about that. Guess I fell off the fence, huh?
Still surprised she was on drugs because I have given it a substantial amount of thought and tried to entertain every scenario and i have kept returning to the fact that baby A is still an infant which means that she had to be using around the labor and thus wouldn't she be withdrawing when she was in the maternity ward? And I felt like her breastfeeding still seemed a sign of some maternal instinct and even made sense why the nap happened. I remember being much more tired on days when my babies would have nursed throughout the night. I think it is stupid and thoughtless to be on drugs as a mother but furthermore be giving your baby milk that is laced with whatever you had.
My thoughts are all over the place and my feelings are quickly being replaced with facts. Glad A is out of that environment.