BBM - I was accused of being two faced because on some postings I put that I hope Dylan is safe, that whomever has him lets him go.
On another, such as this, I expressed my feelings. It depended on whether or not I knew ER was able to read it or not.
I will continue to be two faced. I believe what I believe and that has not changed since day one. I also know that there is a mother out there that has one thing to hold on to and that is HOPE. I will never take that away from her. It's hard, because sometimes I have hope too and then I look at the big picture.
Elaine says something that both of us have said, and I want to explain that. "that I picked so wrong" it's not a selfish thing to say or self centered. It's something we both have thought. I won't speak for her but I will speak for myself, I wonder each and every day if I was so freaking stupid to have married and had children with a person that could have harmed the same children he created. My children, Elaine's children. She's not asking if she made poor choices, she asking, did she pick someone that is capable of harming thier child. I don't blame her one bit for hoping she didn't pick wrong and holding on to that hope.