I am baffled at how many times I see people say CW looked like a loving father in SW's videos. He looked like their father, yes, and a caretaker, but I feel a lack of warmth? A lack of connection?
I noticed the most contact he shared with them was through rough housing or being carried. I see Shanann in many instances hugging the children tight, holding their hands, cuddling them, nuzzling them. I can feel the connection much more in their interactions.
CW's interactions feel a lot more hollow to me. I was observing my husband with our toddler today and their sweet little moments together and I never saw that same kind of tenderness in any videos of CW. Even looking at pics of SW's dad and brother with the kids, I sense more of a bond there.
Of course I have a different perspective of CW after knowing what he's done, but it was just something I've been thinking about. I see someone who went through the motions. I see a narcissist who loved the kids when they fed his ego but discarded them when they bruised his ego.
His relationships are shallow and about what they make him feel. He wants mirrors to reflect his greatness back at him. No one is a complex human to him. Maybe I'm being over analytical, but even in his cards to NK, he is talking about the feelings she gives him. He doesn't ever really compliment her as a person.
Just some pondering.