Having insight into BPD is crucial for healing, and for recognizing the affect of your behavior on yourself as well as others. Kudos to you for being so open and honest about your feelings. Would you agree the many BPD sufferers have very severe negative reactions, aggressive and depressive, to everyday mundane issues. CW seems to be pretty even keel and does not seem unpredictably histrionic or reactive. Looking at some of the FB videos, he seem pretty have a pretty flat affect, aside from what he did to his family that night. From personal interaction with a BPD sufferer, the constant emotional upheavals are usually pretty evident.