DB monologue:
"People don't understand just how difficult it is to wake up and realize that somebody has come to your house and taken your baby and then you are accused of doing something to her or covering something up or whatever insane theories they've come up with, and then I do all this media and be on the tv with the purpose, hoping and praying that somebody has seen her, has seen someone with her, it is literally impossible to remember every single detail and say it exactly the same every single time and there are so many hateful people or negative people who have picked all that apart, and I understand the looking at the mother thing because the world we live in today is not always a safe and happy place, there are a lot of crazy people, there are a lot of bad parents, and a lot of things happen, accidents happen, so I understand why they looked at me in the beginning, and I also understand with the drinking why some of the public had made accusations and drew that out and made scenarios with all that and I understand it, but it's time to come to a reasoning that enough is enough, that my daughter is missing, that she is okay somewhere because nobody kidnaps a ten month old, beautiful little girl to hurt her, she is out there somewhere and I am desperate to find her, I am clinging on to a shread of sanity right now, I just want her home. I want people to realize to take a step back and look, if I had done something I would be in jail right now, Joe doesn't save me from jail, it doesn't work that way."
"People don't understand just how difficult it is to
(make up story in which I) wake up and realize that somebody has come to
(my) house and taken
(my) baby and then
(I am) accused of doing something to her or covering something up or whatever insane theories they've come up with, and then I do all this media and be on the tv with the purpose, hoping and praying that somebody
(will believe my story), has seen someone with
(a baby who looks like) her, it is literally impossible to remember every single
(lie) and say it exactly the same every single time and there are so many hateful people or negative people who have picked all that apart
(I should have known that would happen), and I understand the looking at the mother thing because
(I should be looked at), the world we live in today is not always a safe and happy place, there are a lot of crazy people
(I'm one of them) , there are a lot of bad parents
(like me), and a lot of things happen, accidents happen, so I understand why they looked at me in the beginning, and I also understand with the drinking why some of the public had made accusations and drew that out and made scenarios with all that and I understand it
(because the truth is easy to understand), but it's time to come to a reasoning
(please come to a reasoning, not the truth) that enough is enough, that my daughter is missing, that she is okay somewhere
(in heaven) because nobody kidnaps a ten month old, beautiful little girl to hurt her, she is out there somewhere and I am desperate to
(put this behind me), I am clinging on to a shread of sanity right now, I just want
(this to be behind me). I want people to realize to take a step back and look, if I had done something I would be in jail right now
(feels good to tell myself that), Joe doesn't save me from jail, it doesn't work that way."[/QUOTE]