I think that is what I found so infuriating. Because it was a no contest on the murder charges, IMO he shouldn't even have been allowed to speak on her death. He never claimed responsibility with a guilty charge so why SHOULD he be allowed to make a statement about it?
He blamed God (please take me instead) as if he himself was not directly responsible for her absence. Nope, not him, he begged God.
She was a joy, just reminds us all of his years of SAing her, we know the disgusting source of the joy she was groomed and coerced into bringing him.
He misses her? Yeah, same thing, he misses what he trained her to allow and put up with, a gross chore she didn't have the capacity to agree to or not.
It's not fair that she's not here anymore, as if he too has been victimized by her untimely passing.
I have nothing but sorrow for her loss, as if she died in a car wreck. He has nothing but sorrow. Not guilt. Not accountability. Just all this passive "sorrow"
He misses her all the time. Yes and we know why
her passing has torn me and my family apart as well, again so passive, as if she just passed away, in her sleep. Her dying has done something to him, not the other way round.
I will miss her all the time, yeah, we get it, we know what you are missing, your perfect built in captive victim.
I will never not honor her memory. Scary thought, HOW will he be honoring her memory, replaying memories of all those moments he caught on camera and probably watched frequently for his own enjoyment?
He apologizes for all the pain. At least he remembered the pain of others was in the room

for a brief second he remembered it wasn't all abut him. But even here, he apologizes the pain exists but never admits he and he alone is the cause of all of it.