So it sounds like the notes don't have a confession? How selfish!
Sidenote: my ex husband- long story, and thankfully long gone from my life - he was a liar and manipulator. As part of some "counseling" he was receiving, he had to keep journals, both for himself and for his counselor. As I was ridding my house of his crap, I mean, as I was packing his things up for him, I came across the journals. They were utterly bizarre to say the least. Made up stories, left and right. Mostly self serving, some "taking responsibility" for things that never happened, and few mentions of his actual sins. I can't even express how weird they were, how WEIRD the lies were. Why bother? Anyway, I have to wonder if EG's notes were in the same vein. Self serving, still only worried about #1, perhaps thoughts twisted by long term drug abuse?