Putting guilt or innocence aside for a mo, if you bear in mind that she was seriously upset at being deployed and knowing the reason for that deployment, it's not difficult imo to imagine how her mind might have been working overtime and in a very panicked manner... that if she was eg. to be found guilty of malpractice/incompetence, she then had (potentially) seven baby deaths on her hands. That's a truly terrible thing to contemplate and I can see why she'd think it would follow her for the rest of her life.
Hence her despair that no one would ever want her, and particularly not want to have children with her.
Just a thought.