Random Thoughts
Since things have slowed down I hope no one minds if I share some of my random thoughts and feelings on this case.
- My heart hurts for LM's family. I believe that his upbringing was probably very rough, but no one should have to deal with the knowledge that their loved one committed such atrocious crimes. And on top of that, some horrible things that he wrote about them have become very public which must be so extremely embarrassing.
- Of course my heart hurts for Jun Lin's family. My biggest fear is that someone will hurt my daughter. I can't even imagine if that were to happen and it was to be captured on video and played for the world. I can't imagine not knowing where all the pieces of my baby were.
- Since watching that video, I actually feel changed. Nothing is as innocent as it once was. Stupid comments my friends make (ie, "I just look like I don't have legs") or what should be cute pictures (kittens, anyone?) just make me think of the things I've seen and heard (didn't watch kitty vids but descriptions were enough). I'm scared that's never going to go away and it pisses me off that LM has that power.
- I think LM weaves truth into his many, many lies. I believe he was abused as a child. I'm comfortable guessing it was probably sexual abuse. But I don't believe his mother was the perpetrator. And I don't believe he had an incestuous relationship with his sister. I have reasons for not believing that but I won't go into it.
BBM:
I also agree he was likely abused. I wonder if he BLAMES his mother and sister. Maybe they knew about it and he feels it is their fault for not protecting him? Just a thought.
Nothing excuses his behaviour, though. All thinks point to him KNOWING that it was wrong. He may be crazy, but I don't think he is 'legally insane'. He just doesn't care if something is wrong.