I was thinking about something last night - something from my personal life more than 25 years ago - and I find myself surprised today that I didn't connect the events I'm going to describe to this case before last night. A fellow member previously mentioned preferring not to read about animal cruelty. This post will have a description of animal cruelty, so I wanted to say so in advance.
I went to college in the late 80's/early 90's with a guy I'll call John who ended up serving time in prison for manslaughter. It was a local community college and our program and cohort was small enough that we were a fairly tight knit group well known to each other. John was a smart enough guy, pleasant and involved, part of the group, but just a little bit odd. He played Dungeons and Dragons in an open concept student lounge during breaks and developed the habit of wearing slippers around school instead of shoes. Dressed a little more formally than most of us. Just a bit odd, a bit off, but nothing remotely menacing.
Around this time my city was experiencing a shocking and deeply disturbing spree of pet murders. The killings were contained to one area of the city that was solidly residential and a blend of middle class and affluence. Dogs and other animals were killed and left gruesomely displayed, sometimes disembowelled, hanging in trees or left on properties. For pet owners it was terrifying. The crimes went unsolved for a long number of months, with no end in sight.
Cut to almost Christmas time. I and others in my college program were absolutely floored when John and another person unknown to us were arrested for the unsolved murder of a man from late summer of the same year. A 23 year old guy had been stabbed to death in a undeveloped area of trees and sand pits in behind where he lived. It was eventually prosecuted as a car theft gone wrong. The co-defendant we didn't know was from the general area of town that the man was killed in. John was from the area of town the pets were being killed in. My brain usually runs on logic rather than intuition, so I surprised myself greatly by leaping to the very persistent idea that these two were responsible for the pet killings that would not be solved for a time yet.
I can't begin to tell you how shocked I was that John was involved in a murder. But, as it turned out, he was the main actor, the one who was accused of yielding the knife. Stabbed the man six times, including a fatal wound to the heart. All for, it was said, a car. I was so shocked. I was even sad and worried for John. I couldn't make sense of it. I was about a hundred things all at once. In this frame of mind I called the Crown Attorney's office a few months into the case to find out about it's progress and what was happening. Well. The crown attorney flipped his powdered wig on me. Demanded I tell him why I was interested in this case, demanded to know what I knew, treated me effectively like I was Christina Nougda. He asked what I knew about the Dungeons and Dragons and implied John was acting out a game fantasy in real life. In the course of the rather one sided conversation he half yelled at me that this whole case was the most disturbing thing he'd ever worked on. I hung up, chastised, and never called again.
Roll forward a few months and John's co-defendant in the murder was charged in the unsolved animal killings. Score one for intuition. They never charged John, but they happened in John's neck of the woods, clear across town from where the co-defendant lived. I think he was involved and I think the Crown Attorney thought so too. The murder was eventually pleaded down to manslaughter for John and accessory to murder for the animal killer. John got eight years in prison for the most disturbing case some Crown attorney had ever worked on. It never felt like justice. John took off to the west coast on his release and now has a family. Rumour has it he's a reservist too.
Anyway, it all speaks to the complexity of motive and the limit of facts as a court must see them. It speaks maybe to the ugly forces in a 'folie a deux' as well. It was prosecuted and plead out as an armed robbery gone wrong, but there was darkness around the edges of the case that chilled a seasoned Crown Attorney and probably made him feel pretty helpless in some ways. I see the animal killing and the underbelly of the Dungeons & Dragons connection a little like I see the Eliminator and the dead father and the Steam avatar. We've got the cold hard facts, but we've got this dark, difficult to grasp force that feels like it is running through everything as well. The facts say John wanted a car, and DM wanted a truck. But maybe in the heat and adrenaline of the moment of that power they found themselves wanting murderous violence too. It's so hard to know, so hard to grasp their minds. I'm grateful for that.