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MEEEE TOO! Having taught in all-girls high schools I have seen this kind of denial first-hand. They know they are pregnant but then get stuck somehow. (Might as well add that IMO KC is psychologically younger than her lived years--fodder for another post--and I see in her behaviors a lot of what I saw in some h.s. students.) "If I tell this to my parents to ask for money to pay for an abortion, they will either kick me out or make me have the baby. Either way I am no longer the perfect virgin in their eyes and I don't know if my ego would survive falling off this pedestal that we've all concocted for me to stand on... And I have been taught/developed no internal mechanism for decision-making because it has usually been done for me. And therefore, I will make no decision. If I ignore this it won't exist. And if it exists mom will clean up the mess." If you look at some of KC's lies you see that in a twisted way she is trying to live up to expectations--I have a job. I am not pregnant. What must dinnertable conversation have been like in that home? Stilted and painful I would imagine. Particularly during the pregnancy.
I do think the pregnancy surprised her and required a great deal of denial (both on her side and on CA/GA's side!)... but the lies she tells to manipulate people and to get herself out of trouble, I totally agree, she is aware of and in control of. Thanks for
oke:ing me noggin!