This. My feeling is SW was doing everything within her power to create an ideal life. Unfortunately it takes two to tango & CW had other plans
Almost 30 years ago I entered my 1st marriage. My life seemed perfect: we were both working decent jobs, going to college, had a son, church on Sundays (sang in the church choir & taught Sunday school to boot), purchased our first home, even sold Melaluca for a few years!
I lived in denial through 5 anniversaries while my husband had countless same sex affairs (I had no idea he was gay he played the straight guy part very convincingly).
I read more if-you-believe-it-it-will-happen and Pray Until Something Happens books than were healthy. My belief was that no matter how bad things actually were, my outlook & attitude would set the stage for a better life.
Lord knows I was naive & gullible.
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Behind closed doors I was being physically abused & emotionally destroyed. To the outside world we had the picture perfect life. But if you were to peel off the outer layer it would have been rotten to the core.
Thank God I gathered the courage & sense to escape before I ended up with any of the STD's he caught or worse, he killed me and/or our ds!
I've spent a lot of time perusing SW's public pics/videos the last few days. I can see a little bit of my younger self reflected in her smiles and it breaks my heart (not implying CW was abusive just that she wanted the good life so bad she must have missed or ignored the warning signs).
It is beyond impossible to wrap your mind around this crime. To kill your babies & dump them in a filthy oil tank is worse than despicable! Then to lie about them being alive & huddled/cuddled together or whatever he said? Oooooh that chaps my hide!
FWIW CW is a terrible & obvious liar....my 16yo dd watched the don't know where they are please come back video with me without any knowledge of the case. I was curious what her initial reaction would be. About halfway through she asked me if she was the only one who thought the was the worst liar ever! She said, "I'm not saying he's guilty of murder but he sure is lying about something!" Ugh