The idea was basically for the attorneys to go down the Pedo Pathway, while Jodi tried to look medicated (e.g., doodling pointlessly and staring into space). Then Jodi would suddenly stand up when Nurmi was saying something particularly filthy about Travis and shout, "No! Stop! I can't take this anymore!" The judge would send the jury out of the room due to the outburst. The defense would not request a mistrial but would stop presenting evidence and would ask for a recess until the next day due to Jodi's mental condition. Jodi would then weep in allocution that her lawyers had her medicated and controlled her defense and she's so sorry for the pain caused to TA's family after she had already caused so much pain herself. That her lawyers said this was her time to talk about herself, but she wants to talk about TA. He was such a good person, human like everyone but it's not fair to twist those things into these nasty lies. And she sees now how mentally ill she was--it all made sense at the time--it seemed like she had no real choice--but now its like she's in the same body but she's not the same person. That she was so horrified by the pedo lie and just couldn't sit there any more. That she will if given life simply live quietly in her cell and not cause TA's family any more pain. She understands it's not safe for her to be out among other people; she needs so much more treatment for her illness. She only wants the chance to contemplate and confess and attempt to heal her soul so that over the coming decades she may, with grace, one day be worthy of God's love and forgiveness.