CARIIS
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woke up, this is weird. The self talk is two people are dead, another emotionially scarred for life. I sure as heck am not ra ra LE, they too have been trumatized.
BUT, there is a hoping for outcome, that is confusing. Repeat above once (beats typing). I have never hoped for an outcome.
Don't want it to be bathsalts, their is inherent blame there. At the same time, that makes it more "safe" - if people dont do bathsalts then this wont happen.
Then its like what is that about? You have wrestled psycotic people to the ground. You have had relationships with these folks who so suffer as a result of their illiness. You know there is nothing evil about these folks - they are sick. There brains do not work. Or work too much.
maybe I am hoping for pure mental cause that puts this in a place I can comprehend?
Steroids are in the middle. That age group has been cursed with an ever possesed focus on how they look on the outside. WIth this false notion if they eat apples instead of french fries they can somehow control and delay outcomes - dying.
So steroids has a 'understandable thing" to it. Its just like Rx addiction, the fantasy that cause it is prescribed it is somehow safer that cra& like bathsalts.
Ill be careful but its easier to focus anger at this on others who may have missed the boat.. But that takes it back to this place, as long as others dont do that, it is preventable to some degree?
I guess what I am trying to express is I have never "hoped" for one reason over another before.
What is THAT about?? Very strange.
BUT, there is a hoping for outcome, that is confusing. Repeat above once (beats typing). I have never hoped for an outcome.
Don't want it to be bathsalts, their is inherent blame there. At the same time, that makes it more "safe" - if people dont do bathsalts then this wont happen.
Then its like what is that about? You have wrestled psycotic people to the ground. You have had relationships with these folks who so suffer as a result of their illiness. You know there is nothing evil about these folks - they are sick. There brains do not work. Or work too much.
maybe I am hoping for pure mental cause that puts this in a place I can comprehend?
Steroids are in the middle. That age group has been cursed with an ever possesed focus on how they look on the outside. WIth this false notion if they eat apples instead of french fries they can somehow control and delay outcomes - dying.
So steroids has a 'understandable thing" to it. Its just like Rx addiction, the fantasy that cause it is prescribed it is somehow safer that cra& like bathsalts.
Ill be careful but its easier to focus anger at this on others who may have missed the boat.. But that takes it back to this place, as long as others dont do that, it is preventable to some degree?
I guess what I am trying to express is I have never "hoped" for one reason over another before.
What is THAT about?? Very strange.