I keep waffling all over the place on this one. I still don't have a solid conviction yet. There may have been abuse, there may have been collusion, there may have been a setup, there may have been betrayal...so much to process!!
But no matter what- I keep coming back to this:
"I dreaded how he would look"
Wth???
You can't dread something that you don't anticipate or haven't envisioned. It is rarely used for circumstances you don't perceive as the outcome. "I dreaded going to the boss's office" "I dreaded getting the grade back on that test"...
And how many people voluntarily TRY to envision what their dead child would look like????
No...THAT was unintentional foreshadowing. And we can expect that one phrase to be picked apart in court. It also tells me that the two of them had discussed it before. Because when I use the word dread, it is almost always reserved for something I expected that someone else knew I expected.