Processing thoughts, so bear with me, or move on.
I caught this news during the Super Bowl. My heart sank, and muttered a few ugly things about JP, explained to DH what happened, and went back to the game.
Checked in periodically during the game, showed pics of the house to DH. Heart heavy.
At bed time, I was thinking "I must be desensitized .. no tears .. no emotional outburst .. I need a break from WS" ..
Fell fast asleep.
Then I dreamed. I interacted with Braden, had a conversation with Charlie. Woke up and stared at the blinking light on the DVR.
Went back to sleep.
Had a conversation with Susan.
Woke up this morning and can barely function.
I'm numb. I can't say I'm surprised. I don't even feel hate. I feel deep sorrow .. especially now for the Coxes ..
Printed that beautiful pic of Susan and the boys and posted it over my desk at work this morning.
Everyone asks "Who's that?"
"OH just some folks I'm thinkin' alot about today ..."
Evil exists. It started before JP. 30 years ago we'd be feeling sorry for JP because of what I'm sure he endured at the hands of SP. Now we hate him for being evil himself.
This is a broken world.
God help us all.
RIP with momma, little men.
imo